Daily Archives: March 8, 2001

Matt is out with a

Matt is out with a friend of his from Santa Barbara (I think). They were calling up another friend and the friend told them to call back in 10min after the end of Survivor. He was so pissed; I thought it was funny and sad.
I have never really gotten into the survivor craze. I did watch the last episode, which was good I guess. It was all dramady, esp. that speach at the end by Sue to Richard and the other girl.
But the whole Real World/Road Rules concept has been so over done. AND IT’S FAKE PEOPLE. It’s not like they are going to really die or something. The fucking camera man is muching on a Babe Ruth while taping these fools.
Anyway, that my rant on Survivor. My lovely girlfriend is home from work and I want to focus on her for a bit before I goto sleep
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I am really tired, but

I am really tired, but I’m staying up to talk to Suzanne tonight. I really should have ate more; I only had two slices of pizza and a black cherry soda (and it tasted kinda like cherries). anyway, I talked to my advisor and I am all go to graduate after fall semester. WhooHoo!!! Now if I can just survive this semester. I have SO much reading to do. This weekend I am going to lock myself in the house and read and work on papers. I will take a break on Sat to go up to Fairfield to see my girl and to deposit some checks.
She still doesn’t understand that it takes me longer to learn stuff than she can. It’s true that I prcrastinate to the last minute too. But I’m getting better; I give myself 5 minutes now. 😛
Trying to get the price of the computer that I want down to $1000. It’s at $1250 right now for a AMD 1 GHZ. I’m trying to remember if I figured out the price for a monitor in it. Well, maybe next weekend, I will go out with Jason (Suzanne’s best guy friend, who is going to build it for me) to Fry’s and check out prices.
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God damn useless computer….

So the computer crashes while I am typing my entry in. Argh, i had such a good theme going too; you know, solving the world’s food and ecological problems, the cure for every disease, world peace and all of that. **sigh**
I’m thinking that it is time for me to reformat the HD and start to reinstall everything. I’m just worried about the network connection. I would probably lose it until tuesday. I guess I can use dial up if I need it. I won’t do it tonight; what I will do is a Scan Disk. I’ll set it to do a physical scan of the disks. I’ll start it before I goto sleep tonight.
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Hmm, my last couple of

Hmm, my last couple of entries didn’t post….
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Horoscope….

You can’t get very far away from the demands of your public life. If you feel as though you have the weight of the world on your shoulders, take a break today. Find a way to enjoy creative work that will keep you away from the madding crowd. Your current goals should be motivation enough. You may need to say no to some requests, however. Try to avoid phone conversations or situations in which you’ll be a captive audience.
I would take a break today, except that I already did this a couple of weeks ago….
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I feel like my life

I feel like my life is slowly trying to come apart again….
O.K. It’s just that I am being lazy, that’s all.
Maybe I should do some speed or something to get me going….
**sigh** Naw, I just need to get off of my ass and work.
It’s just that I wish that I could do all of my work on a bed covered in my mink blanket…
O.K. Goal. To have taken a shower, wash my dishes, and have my room cleaned before class today at 12:30pm..
Let’s get cracking’
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The Aikido fool returns….

**sigh** Sometimes I wonder why I am even in the class. I guess to make all of the other student look better, because I just suck big time. And it’s not like the other classes that I’ve taken, Tai Chi and Karate, where I can practice on my own. You have to have a partner for everything that you do. Well, I did lean how to do rolls, but I don’t have enough room anywhere to practice at. I wish the old resident apartments were still open and I was living there. The lobbies we big enough that I could practice my stuff. Actually, I miss Moraine; it’s all serious now in the class. Nobody appreciates my sound effects and my exaggerated rolls. Anyway, I do like the class, especially when I’m the one getting thrown. Not that I am a sadist, but it gives me some humility to counter my ego and arrogance by being thrown around the mat like a sack of potatoes. It’s either that or the fact that my pants keep falling off that is the fact that I am the laughing stock of the class.
**sigh** Well, it’s a good thing that I looked at my calendar in my planner, cause I have two papers due next Friday. I am getting worried about my classes. The US History class isn’t too bad. I read ahead, so I can slack off a little in the class. I still need to work hard and do better on this upcoming paper. I still can’t believe that I got a C on that last paper. The Reformation class, on the other hand, is bending my ass over and giving me a spanking of the lifetime. I just cannot get into this class; the topic doesn’t interest me much, I cannot keep up with the teacher and the grad students in the class spouting out Latin and Italian, and the readings are difficult has hell. When the easiest book that you have read so far is the Bible, then you know that you are in trouble. I guess I am just going to mope along and just pray for a miracle. The Beijing class I will know if I am going to worry or not after tonight when we get our midterm take home assignment. Another paper or papers that I have to do; I just don’t know how she is going to grade them and that is the 1,000,000 dollar question.
I also have an appointment to see if I can graduate or not. I was cleaning and I saw something that says that you have to get a B or higher in your major classes to graduate. If that is so, then I am screwed, cause I got a couple of C’s in some of my history classes. If that is the case, then I will seriously think about dropping out of school. I mean I have going to school for almost 10 years now. And I thought I was kidding when I used to joke about being on the 10 year plan for a degree. I am just so burned out and just want to leave. It’s not even like I am going to use my history degree for anything. I don’t want to be a teacher (I just don’t have the spirit that you need to be a good teacher right now) and I’m def. not going to go for my masters. And a lot of my friends don’t have degrees; I think that only Barry and Gabi have degrees….Amanda has one too. Amber only has an A.A. in music and Dan got his degree from a tech school. And most of the one’s without degrees have good paying jobs.
But if I didn’t finish school, that would kill my parents; literally for my mom. I think that the only reason she is living is to see me graduate…O.K. she is staying around just to marry me off and to get some grandchildren. But if I dropped out of school, that would really crush my parents. I think it would come back to haunt me too. I was raised in Korea, and I have to whole “A college degree is a guaranteed job” mentality going on. I talked briefly to Peter about it and he says that I should just stay and get the degree. Suzanne says the same thing, but I am doing this with loans, and I don’t want to be paying off student loans for the rest of my life. **sigh** I guess I should just wait until after the meeting with the advisor before deciding…
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