White guy with confederate flag lanyard and flag on car with a Raiders beanie on listening to N.W.A.

I’m confused

The lack of motivation to do anything is real.  Lots of half assery and not caring going on in my life right now.  Finally updated the back-end of this site to the newest WordPress.  The plan was to follow the yearly prompts from the one site I bookmarked along with more Book of Questions stuff and pica from the phone.  Nothing.  I could blame the new job or the weather.  Too much energy to do that, just easier to be meh about it. Is lack of motivation while people kill themselves? Or is killing themselves the last spark of motivation before their life fades out?  **Sigh**  I should take my meds and goto sleep…

The silence of her reply would be deafening if it wasn’t for all my fears and doubts yelling in my head.