My Year of the Tiger journal and my Caran D’ache Taurus pen

**sigh**. BeReal is ok but I wish Front/Back was still around.

Why birds and their songs are good for our mental health

Bullshit. The birds in my apartment complex are chirping their asses off at 3am in the morning waking everyone up. The worse though were the flamingos at Safari West when I spent the night; they were long and ugly sounding.


Go Sharks!

What I deserve…

  • I don’t deserve my job
  • I don’t deserve my apartment
  • I don’t deserve my things
  • I don’t deserve my friends
  • I don’t deserve my family
  • I don’t deserve love
  • I don’t deserve what I want
  • I don’t deserve what I need
  • I don’t deserve life


Can’t believe I let my fountain pens get this bad. So glad I finally got a sonic cleaner for my nibs. Still, it took most of the day to get the first batch clean. I have to do better. Also need to take better BeReal pics…

Mother’s Day Sunday

Got the willpower to go out for breakfast this morning at Toast. Got here early enough to beat the Mother’s Day/church crowd. Didn’t bring the journal with me cause all of my pen bibs are filthy. Good thing I finally got a sonic cleaner for them.

French Toast with Strawberries and whipped cream.

After breakfast, goto the hardware store for a plug extension for the A/C and see if they have the window blocker. If not, I still have the cardboard from last year. Also should goto Safeway on the way home. And try to clean the house today. Work a little more on the tiger bust. And maybe tackle fixing the Govee lights on the sofa and the wall. So ambitious; but we’ll see how far I get.

**sigh** I wonder if mom even appreciates the flowers I send or just throw them away. Nobody wins when the family feuds.

Should actually take a day off to go get my lab work done and make an appointment for True Float. Wasting $80 if I don’t use it. Maybe I should cancel and goto StretchLab instead. It is closer than driving to Napa.

Is it self care or just being selfish?

Am I depressed or just lazy?

Why I love shopping at

I should put this quote in one of those AI generators and see what comes out.

I’ve Been Single for Decades. The Effect on My Finances Has Been Staggering

This excerpt from Arrangements in Blue: Notes on Loving and Living Alone is me to a T. Going to have to see if I can get this book from the library.

…in bed

Last one for awhile.