Monthly Archives: August 2000

OK. So after stormng the gates of hell and getting my ass killed a couple of times, I finally pulled myself away from Diablo II. I am pretty far ahead, that I won’t have to worry about SHawn catching up to me.
So for another weekend, I have totally wasted it. I didn’t do anything productive with it. I had so many things that I could have done with it, but I just lounged around and played games, and watched T.V. And you know what, I feel good about it. I can here PD saying how could I waste a weekend like that. And I’m sure Suzanne would say why wasn’t I getting my life together. But you know what? I’m happy like this I liked being alone and just wasting time. Not having to deal with any of the issues that are going on in my life. During the week, I usually end up thinking about stuff, so I like the fact that I haven’t really thought about much this weekend.
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Just looked at my bank balance. Will def. have to find another way to get laundry done. Hmm. I wonder if i could wash the clothes in the bath tub? I am so ghetto. Maybe I’ll just call in sick for the week? Looks like I need to start calling people. I could get the money from my mom, but this will be the 3rd time in as many months that she has bailed me out. And she is not happy thatI haven’t visited yet or that I forgot Eric’s Birthday. We’ll have to look elsewhere for the money
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Almost finish the 3rd act of Diablo II Whoohoo. maybe I’ll beat the game before I leave here.
Was watching the end of Thc Craft on T.V. I think that I am like Nancy; I have this great power inside of me, but I’m to insane to control it.
Flipping channels and stopped on the Pokemon Movie. Didn’t realize how powerful it was; I was sucked into it for 5mins. I guess it has to do with maturaty or something.
Something else that is hypnotizing is arabic mosic videos.
OK. I should start cleaning the house and maybe fix some dinner.
I also need to think about laundry, and how I’m going to get it done.
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Just played Diablo II for 6 hrs. straight. I am tired and my eyes hurt, but I feel good about it. I didn’t pass Act III, but I am almost at the end of the level, and it will take awhile for Shawn to catch up with me.
Well, my car is def. dying. i need to get it into the shop. Except I have no money until the 14th. I need to do laundry too. I think I have enough to do a couple of loads of laundry and get gas to last me until pay day. Maybe Shawn has some that he can let me borrow. We’ll see.
I think that I’m going to goto sleep now. Or maybe I’ll finishing scanning the Sr. Prom pictures. Hmmm…..
I am proud og myself that I haven’t taken a peek at Suzanne journal. For the moment, we are at peace with each other, but I wonder how long we can walk on this tightrope that we call a friendship. Hopefully I long time, but I’m not so sure.
Ok sleep time.
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OK. Getting ready to leave here. I’m leaving early cause Peter needs a ride to the bus station. This is why my paychecks have sucked. I really need to get on the ball with work. We’ll try again next week
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I wish I was back in the apts on campus. Specificly, I wish I was taking a shower. sometimes, i would get into the shower, get the temperature right, stuff a towel underneath the crack in the door, and then turn the lights off and just stand in the shower. I would just stand there for like and hour or two, just letting the dark emcompse me and protect me from the harsh light of the world outside. I also love the feeling the warm water splash against my body. I would feel so safe and calm then. I could just let myself float away for my conscience. Some kind of womb reflex or something. **sigh** Once I move back onto campus, I can do that. Not in Berkeley though. I’m sure the water bill would just shoot through the roof if I did that.
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GOD…..I should have went to San Diego State. That way, I could have been close enough to goto the Price Is Right. I am such a Price is Right junkie when AW is away
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I just notice that there are more frowny faces than happy faces. I really wish that I can cheer up
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Dreamed about Suzanne…but I don’t really remember all of it. Past of it was the music video that I have thought of. I have this, hobby I guess, of thinking up music videos in my head. This video goes with Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls. It’s a whole angel/vampire video. I wish that I could write these ideas down and get them published, or get the movie made. Anyway, I am late for work…Off I go.
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**sigh**
In other news, I got a call from the housing department saying that my move-in date is the weekend of the 11th. WHOO-HOO. I think this means that I got into either Park Merced or Stonestown. I hope, I hope, I hope.
Since AW won’t be in tommorow and PD might call in, I guess I will hit the sack early so I can be at work on time for a change. I’m sure once I get to work, I’ll get bored and be on the internet all day. And Shawn won’t be home so I will have the house all to my self. That means I can run around naked. WHOO-HOO.
God, I’m such a freak sometimes
In other news real quick, I forgot my brother’s b-day yesterday, so my mom called me on it. OOPS! Oh well. I still need to get a ticket to go up there for labor day.
Caught the end of Bush’s speech at the republic convention. It was not too bad, I didn’t catch too many position statements, but I did catch the internet crack towards Gore. One point for Bush. I guess I’ll get a newspaper tommorow to read the speech. Or I guess I could look on the internet tommorow at work
Two last things:
#1 – Saw the 4th DVD of Cowboy Bebop. One of the best Japanese Anime’s out there. GO RENT IT NOW.
#2 – Vision of Escaflowne is premiering on August 19th on FOX. Another anime you much watch, although I heard that the English voice actors are bad. I’m suppose to go camping – either with Suzanne or with Shawn. Either way, I’m bringing a T.V. so I can watch it.
Man, what a totally uneventful journal entry. I wonder if Suzanne has found this yet? With the search engine going beta, she had a better chance of finding it.
O.k. I need to goto sleep, I have plenty of things to think upon
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