I wish I was back in the apts on campus. Specificly, I wish I was taking a shower. sometimes, i would get into the shower, get the temperature right, stuff a towel underneath the crack in the door, and then turn the lights off and just stand in the shower. I would just stand there for like and hour or two, just letting the dark emcompse me and protect me from the harsh light of the world outside. I also love the feeling the warm water splash against my body. I would feel so safe and calm then. I could just let myself float away for my conscience. Some kind of womb reflex or something. **sigh** Once I move back onto campus, I can do that. Not in Berkeley though. I’m sure the water bill would just shoot through the roof if I did that.
A 40-something rediscovering life in California