Daily Archives: August 4, 2000

OK. Getting ready to leave here. I’m leaving early cause Peter needs a ride to the bus station. This is why my paychecks have sucked. I really need to get on the ball with work. We’ll try again next week
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I wish I was back in the apts on campus. Specificly, I wish I was taking a shower. sometimes, i would get into the shower, get the temperature right, stuff a towel underneath the crack in the door, and then turn the lights off and just stand in the shower. I would just stand there for like and hour or two, just letting the dark emcompse me and protect me from the harsh light of the world outside. I also love the feeling the warm water splash against my body. I would feel so safe and calm then. I could just let myself float away for my conscience. Some kind of womb reflex or something. **sigh** Once I move back onto campus, I can do that. Not in Berkeley though. I’m sure the water bill would just shoot through the roof if I did that.
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GOD…..I should have went to San Diego State. That way, I could have been close enough to goto the Price Is Right. I am such a Price is Right junkie when AW is away
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I just notice that there are more frowny faces than happy faces. I really wish that I can cheer up
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Dreamed about Suzanne…but I don’t really remember all of it. Past of it was the music video that I have thought of. I have this, hobby I guess, of thinking up music videos in my head. This video goes with Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls. It’s a whole angel/vampire video. I wish that I could write these ideas down and get them published, or get the movie made. Anyway, I am late for work…Off I go.
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