If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? Why haven’t you told them yet?I think I would most regret telling my parents just how much I love them, especially my dad. I call my parents and visit them for the holidays, but it just never seems enough for me. I don’t know, I just feel like I’m a failure to them even though I know that I’m not and they are proud of me. Still, after all that they have done for me; raising me, feeding and clothing me, I feel like I should be providing for them now. As it is, I can barely take care of myself. I guess I get this from watching too many television ads during the Price Is Right or something. I should be finishing paying off my home and getting ready to buy them a retirement home somewhere in Palm Springs or somewhere. There is one commercial that comes to mind, I think it’s a Men’s Warehouse one. Damn you George Zimmerman; damn you and your suits to hell.
When it comes to my dad, he is the quiet and reserved one in my parents’ relationship. It’s also one of the qualities that I’ve picked up from him (no comments from the peanut gallery.) He has always been reserved in his emotions….that’s not it. He has always been the strong one of the family. For me, he has been like a lighthouse; he would always be there to guide me in when I needed him. And he has always been helpful to others, giving himself up for his family and his friends. That’s something that I def. learned from him. He has also been one to guard his emotions and inner feelings, also something that I have learned from him. It took my mother’s accident for the both of us to really start opening up from our shells and talking to each other, I think.
Both of my parents are frustrating to shop for when it comes to Xmas time. My mom it’s because she wants extravagant presents. (**rolling my eyes** don’t know what I’m going to do for Mother’s Day this year…) My Dad is even worse, however. He never thinks that he needs anything and aaarrrggghhh, going shopping with him trying to get him to pick something. But that’s part of why I love them. I know that they are asleep right now, but I will call them tomorrow and tell them how much I love them. I don’t think I will be able to ever tell them enough times how much I love them.
A 40-something rediscovering life in California