Your Existing Situation
Dissatisfied. The need to escape continued involvement with his present circumstances makes it imperative for him to find some solution.
Your Stress Sources
Suppresses his innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that he might be carried away by it only to find himself pursuing some will-o’-the-wisp. Feels he has been misled and abused and has withdrawn to hold himself cautiously aloof from others. Keeps a careful and critical watch to see whether motives towards him are sincere–a watchfulness which easily develops into suspicion and distrust.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels he is receiving less than his share, but that he will have to conform and make the best of his situation.
Feels trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way of gaining relief. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity providing no turmoil or emotional agitation is involved.
Your Desired Objective
Desires a tranquil, peaceful state of harmony offering quiet contentment and a sense of belonging.
Your Actual Problem
Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of his hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. He is trying to escape from this into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, protecting him from dissatisfaction and lack of appreciation.
Your Actual Problem #2
Needs to protect himself against his tendency to be too trusting, as he finds it is liable to be misunderstood or exploited by others. Is therefore seeking a relationship providing peaceful and understanding intimacy, and in which each knows exactly where the other stands.
Current mood: irritated
Current music: P.M. Dawn – Downtown Venus
So last night was the big store wide meeting and the xmas party. Has usual the warehouse got shut out from the manager/employee/rookie of the year award. What else is new. Nothing major happened anyway. After the meeting, I waitied for Serraph to pick me up and we went shopping for the party. She was wearing a white top and her FMR pants. She was looking really good. But she also has a cold;on the bad side that means that she is sick, on the good side, she has that deep sexy voice going on.
Anyway, we rushed to the mall to get me something to wear cause I didn’t have anything that would make me look half as good as serraph. So we went to Hot Topic and I got a kick ass shirt and some nice looking pants. The shirt is gold with a tiger and dragon on it. I’ll post a pic of it later.
So with outfit in hand, we flew to the party. It was at The Boathouse, this sport bar/club that is next to the golf course. Needless to say heads were turning our direction;either cause of my flashy gloden shirt or to serraph FMR pants. With was the effect that I wanted.
The party was o.k.; nothing special really. Amber got me a big ass bottle of champaigne (note to self, buy orange juice for all the mimosas that I will be drinking). And she also got me the Chinese Zodiac Tiger Beanie Baby. It’s really cool looking, but I’ve lost it already. I thought it was in Serraph’s car, but I looked today and I couldn’t find it. Anyway Suzanne got to meet everybody and I’m sure that the bookstore gossip machine will be turning out shit on monday about us. Oh well, fuck them. Anyway, I’m not real ….happy with the bookstore. That not it. I like the bookstore and all, but I don’t really feel too close with anybody there, not like at Solano when I considered everybody there my friend (even Frances).
Well, we got fed and then we left and went back to my place and the question came up if my ass has gotten fatter? (Feel free to comment on the condition of my ass. I’ll put up before and after pictures and you can decide for yourselves.) Well, soon Randy and the bastard came home and we decided to take off to Serraph’s place.
So I spent th night at serraphs and she is such the heavenly angel in bed, whether she is sick or well. Usually, I’m the one who’s hot to the touch, but last night she was the one wit hall the body heat. Not that I wasn’t producing any of my own, but she was just a raging fire.
So today I have been tring to take care of her, more or less. after bugging her for an hour this morning, she kicked me out so she could get some sleep. So I went ot ge breakfast for us. I also stopped and got her some medicine and some *******. Well, I ate both breakfasts, but she loved the ********. Anyway, now she is tempting me with one of my Christmas gifts. It is def. a book, but I don’t know what book it is. It’s too small to be the kama sutra. Too big to be left Behind by Tim Lahaye and jerry Jenkins. Hmmm, I guess I’ll have to wait until xmas.
I was going to go xmas shopping today, but I’ll wait until tommorow. I think we are going to the outlets stores in Vacaville. Serraph can try out the coat that I’m getting her. I’ll take a picture and post it too.
OK. I need to pay some attrntion to my sick angel…..
Current mood: content
Current music: Ophelia – Natalie Merchant