Daily Archives: September 28, 2003

.bullseye on the budget

[Listening to: Cut Here – The Cure – Greatest Hits (04:11
once again my finances have taken a hit because of this weekend. I still might have enough to get
the case though. Will have to delete my register in Quicken and start all over though.

BTW, this is the quiet case that I want. My old case sounds like a
vacuum cleaner or something.

.alcohol and drugs

[Listening to: Cut Here – The Cure – Greatest Hits (04:11
I hate the fact that I need an outside stimulus in order for me to be more outgoing.

Only by being blitzed out of my mind do I have the nerve to go up to someone else and to start talking to them. At the Redeye, it was with this black girl. Of course I forgot her name, but she had a
mesmerizing quality to her. She was def. unique out of all the other girls that were there.

And then today, after leaving the ball game I was buzzed enough to hit on this girl outside the Academy of Art. I didn’t hit on her, I was just checking her out hard, according to Joy.

Both instances were alcohol induced. If I had a wish, I think that instead of wishing for health or money, I would wish for the ability to
talk to complete strangers. And it’s not just in clubs or out in public; even online, I am loathe to talk to strangers on IM or in forums. Amy, you are a complete fluke that I started talking to you and we became friends. It is so unlike me.

So how do I develop the ability to talk to people without resorting to drugs or alcohol? Better yet, how do I sleep in my bed with all of my clothes on top of it?

.recovery

[Listening to: God Don’t Make Lonely Girls – The Wallflowers – Bringing Down the Horse (04:49)]
The best part of this weekend had to be the dump that I just took. Man, talk about some nice and fresh manure
coming out of my ass. It felt good, esp. since I had to hold it from Mission Street.

So I head to my local WaMu branch and of course, I now have money in my account. So I get some out and head to BART. The thing that sucked was that I had to pay for parking again cause somebody took my spot. If they would have parked one space over, I could have reused that spot (the parking fee is for 24hrs,) Boarded BART and headed downtown and maybe I was a little tired, but I swear I didn’t hear the driver call my stop. Anyway, the next thing I know I am on my way to Oakland. Had to get off in West Oakland and catch a train back to S.F.

Eventually make my way to Pac Bell Park (Soon to be SBC Park, complete with LA Dodger Blue/white colors. 😛 )Met up with Amber, Rob, and Juan. Had a great time watching the
Giants clobber the Dodgers in the last game. Found out that they price drinks by the shot at the club level at Pac Bell i.e. the Mudslide on the rocks that I wanted would have
cost me $25. Amber got liquored up and still beat me going down the slides at the park.

Afterward went to the Academy of Art to meet up with Angie and Joy. Joy had to work, so Angie and I headed to the Cheesecake Factory for dinner. I have to say that the place lived up to the wait and to the hype, because the food was great (had Chicken and biscuits). Too full for cheesecake though; will get some next time. After that, we headed to Angie’s suite at the Renaissance Parc 55. OMG, talk about a room with a view. I have pictures; am going to try and piece together a
panoramic.

Left Angie’s early cause of my stomach and the fact that my body is tired. Alright, I really didn’t want to drop my bomb in her hotel room with her cousin’s on their way to the room. Hopefully the bathroom will clear up in an hour, cause I think that there is a 2nd run
coming.

.weekend update

– Money deposited into bank. Yay!

-Took BART to club; got in for free cause I was early.

-Didn’t know anyone at the club for 30-45min. Had 3 drinks.

-Angie and cousins show up. Yay! Had more drinks.

-Me (fucked up, but not showing) taking care of Angie (even more fucked up)

-Decide to leave before BART closes. CARD IS DECLINED w/$50 Bar Tab!?!?!

-Luckily, one of Angie’s cousins get the bill for me, I owe her big time.

-Somehow I escape to club and get myself lost trying to find a Washington Mutual.

-Find WaMU and find out that I am -$40!?!?!?

-Get even more lost trying to find club where Angie is at.

-Luckily I have $10 in pocket to catch BART home.

– Except that BART closes at 1AM, not 2Am on Sat.

-Wander the Tenderloin trying to find Polly Esters

-Find Polly Esters and get in cause I know the Bartender and the bar back.

-Hang out at Polly Esters for 4hrs. sobering up and watching white people who can’t dance.

-Spent hour mesmerizes by HOT lady with legs up to here and this much of a skirt on shake her thing on a table.

-Regret not going out and buying camera phone.

-Watch guys play great card game for an hour

-Get taken back to my car by Peter

-Get home at 5am

-sleep

-get up at 11 and rush out the door to watch Giants last game.

-praying that there is money in my bank account

-praying that I don’t throw up.