Monthly Archives: January 2001

Taurus
Your mind and emotions are working at odds right now. Although you have an ability to ride high in public areas and with social situations, you may be feeling depressed and pressured about partnership matters. If your broad shoulders are overburdened, make some decisions to call an end to anything that might drain your emotions. You’ll receive wonderful affirmations from groups and friends.
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so I’m back at the computer section of the bookstore typing away. I have so many things that I need to put down here, but I don’t have the time to do it here. Also, I hate using the computers in the store; I want to be in my room where I can be comfortable and take my time.
Anyway, I got a roommate for one of the single rooms. His name is Matthew and he is a 23 yr old finance major. Really into fitness and into spirituallity; kinda like Ben. I think that we will get along just fine.
But the fact that I don’t have a computer or a TV or even a Stereo is killing me. I’m forced to read and to listen to music on my clock radio. It’s good, cause I haven’t read in a long time. But it’s bad cause I am thinking way too much. The thing is that I was going to start to write in a book journal, but I am some scarred and ashamed of myself, that I can’t even do that. So I read; right now, it’s Anne Rice vampire series. I’m actually reading Armand right now, comparing myself to him. Am I full of it or what? But I think that I am more closer to Armand than to Louis or Lestad.
**sigh** She is so careless, but so am I too. I wonder if she has found this journal yet. I have found one of hers; she shouldn’t have linked it to anybody else. Of course I read it and started to get tearied eyed. I wish I could just give up this facarde and go to her. But foolish pride keeps me in the hell of my own making….
Something is going on, so I think that I better get outta here. Maybe I’ll call gateway and see if my computer is done.
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I am so bad with money. I checked my acct to see if i would have money to buy some pans and I am almost broke again. I’ll have to go and return the books I bought last night, along with the shower curtain. **sigh** I really need to learn how to budget. Hopefully, I have enough money to tide me over until either payday or when I get my financial aide check. I wonder if I can hit mom and dad for some money. Or better yet, for some pots and pans.
Anyway, I really want my computer back. I how that the speakers were broken, so I don’t have to pay anything. If it is the sound card, then I wont be able to get my computer back until payday. I might go crazy. It sucks not having a computer or a TV. I guess it’s good cause I am forced to read, which i need to do more of anyway. But I’m also thinking alot more, and that’s not always so good. O.K. I am tired (lifting boxes of paper and notebooks tires one out easily) so I need to go home to get the stuff to return and then go home and take a bath. Ahhh, I can take a bath now since the tub is clean. I’d better enjoy it while I can
Current mood: tired
Current music: the sound of the A/C in the bookstore

from this cruise agency in Florida. Apparently, I was checking my AOL email (which I really have to cancel this week) and there was an email to win a trip or something. Apparently I filled it out cause I had won a trip to Florida, The Bahamas, and a cruise for 10 days/9 nights. The cost of the everything was over $2000, but all I would have to pay is $349. So i said, “Well, I’m a college student but, i sure that…” I never got to finish; has soon as he heard ‘College Student’, he said good bye and hung up.
Now, my thing is, so what that I’m a college student. That doesn’t mean that I got no money. I think at least he coould have tried to sell me whatever he was going to sell. It’s funny, but it also hurt a little. Actually Mew and I were talking about this because on forms that you have to fill out your income level, Mew has moved up to the second lowest one, and I’m still at the $15,000 and under category. Oh well….
Current mood: content
Current music: Listening to KFOG on the radio

Well, the computer labs are close this weekend. Luckly the bookstore is open for some kindergarden conference. Hee hee. It is so lax here; the guy at the computer counter is on AIM with the sound all the way up. I can hear him IMing all over the store.
Anyway, I am moved into my new place. Overall, I am disapointed with it. The room that I’m sharing is about the size of the the room that I had when I was in the on-campus apartments a year ago. The main problem is that there is not enough storage space. There is only a small drawer tucked in a little ass space for us to use. I had to goto Target and buy some plastic drawers to put underneath the bed. The beds are basicly bunk bed style taken apart. I’m going to see if I can find an extra one somewhere so that I can have my bed on top and take the mattress and the frame out of the bottom and use that area for my desk or something. The desk that is in the room is not bad. It’s actually pretty big; plenty of room for my monitor and printer.
The bathroom is kinda big. There’s a space where we can put some shelves if we want. The cheap bastards didn’t even put in a shower curtain. Maybe I’ll pick one up at Wards. It’s not like we need a good one, just one to keep the water in the bathtub.
The kitchen is small, but it works. Once again, there are not enough shelves. I will have to watch how much stuff I buy at the store and make sure I have room for it. The dishwasher is nice, although loud and it takes a long time for it to finish.
The living room is def. small. It’s like smaller than the bedroom. The only cool thing is the fact that it has vaulted ceilings and big windows. It’s going to be hard to have a party there though.
Just checked my grades. Passed all of my classes. B’s and C’s. That’s cool though. Still not enough to get me off of probation, but it’s all good. I’m not going to be kicked out. But this upcomming semster, i need to get some A’s.
Anyway, back to the new place. Overall, I kinda dissapointed. The buildings are still not done in some places. The phones work, but the internet is not up yet and the laundry room is not ready. Hopefully the place will get better has time passes.
I’m the only person in my room has of this morning. Which was cool, to run naked around the house without a worry. But it sucked being alone there on my first night. Daniel (my old roommate) and Reina are also in the newplace, but I forgot their address. **sigh** I wished that Suzanne and I were together last night. It would have been one of those fun and memorable times together. Speaking of, I called my mom and dad and my mom was quizzing me on why we broke up. I didn’t even tell her. She says that she saw it on my web page, but I don’t have a web page up yet. I wonder if Suzanne called my mom? I don’t thing she did, I’ll just chalk it up to mother’s instints.
There’s so much that I need to rant about, but everybody keeps on interrupting me here, so maybe i’ll save it to when I get my computer back.
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Went to Sac to see Mew and Mike….
Got Drunk, Got Paid….
Went Shopping, Saw Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon…
Went Hot Tubbing and got drunk somemore….
Checked into the Village, in the process of getting my stuff.
The Network for the Viliage is not up yet, although it doesn’t matter anyway cause my computer is in the shop. So once everything is unpacked, I’ll goto the library and see if it is open yet. If it is, then I’ll be able to do a full update. I got a lot of stuff that I want to get outwhile it is still fresh…
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Got Mew hooked on Am I Hot Or Not. We are both on the site rating guys and girls. Heehee
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Well, I am finally away from SF and am in Sac with my girl Mew and her boy, Mike. Stopped by April’s to get back my Office CD. She was looking really cute and good for some reason. Maybe the moon was in the air.
Anyway, it looks like more people are canceling for the wedding, so it’s all good. I can use tonight and tommorow to relax and move into the village on Sat.
Why is it if a woman runs away from her relationship, she is a hero for having the courage to find herself (According to Oprah that is), but if a guy does the same thing, then he is a coward?
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**sigh** Well, I picked myself up enough to finish packing. The only thing that is really left is the computer (of course). I can’t fing the box for the CPU, which is odd cause I don’t remember throwing it away. Lucky, I have a box that is big enough for it to fit. I’ll probably have like 15 boxes when I’m done. God, that’s alot of crap. That doesn’t include the couple of boxes that I already have at the warehouse. I think that it’s time to ship some stuff to Mom/Dad and to throw away other stuff. I hate to throw away stuff. The thing is that most of this stuff, I think that I need. These other guys are lucky cause their families live close by: Mike’s sister lives in the city, Randy’s folks are in Yuba City, and Quetzal family is down in Monterey. Meanwhile, my family is in Washington State. If they were still in Vacaville, I’m sure I would have less stuff to move. All of this stuff is practically my life. And it is as big as a mess has my life feels right now.
I will miss Randy and Mike; they were pretty good roommates. I starting to think that I should have stayed here with Randy and Mike and we could have looked for a place for the summer together. Oh well, maybe we will hook up yet. I hope for the best for both of them. I will see Mike since he works at the info desk on campus. Randy, on the other hand, I’m not sure about. Since he has graduated, the only way to see him is to go and join the YMCA. Which I have thought about doing. Quetzal, unfortuantely, I will probably see has he is moving into the Viliage too. But the last time I checked, he was to be in a different building than me. So maybe sighting of him will be far and inbetween. I can only hope.
Still so much to do. I have to change subscriptions and I need to get a change of address form and send emails to everybody saying that I’m moving. But I don’t even know the new address. maybe I’ll wait until after I move.
**side thought** I wish someone would have bought me something off of my wish list at amazon.com. Maybe for my birthday, I will hint really hard to everybody.
Anyway it’s 11:30 and I need to get things done before I goto sleep. So goodbye LJ, when next we meet, it will be on a T1 line. Heehee!!!
Current mood: calm
Current music: Seal – If I Could

Well, I decided to stay on-line a little longer and go random LJ hunting.
Foolish tygre, you should know better than to go wandering around. Look at what you found…
And now you are crying like a scared little girl…
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