.To Be Awake or To Be Asleep

What is the purpose of life?

Yes this is going to be one of those kind of journal entries.

It seems that there are two points. or possibilities. Well, their might be more, but I am going to focus on two of them.

There is the one point that we are searching for a dream. That we are trying to work our way out of the harsh reality that is life to reach a point, or a goal, of where we are living in the dreams that we have. We play the lottery in hopes that we can win and live out our fantasies. We goto school in hopes of getting a career/job doing something that we really like. We loose weight in hopes that our Prince Charming will come on his white horse and sweep up away.

**total side trip. Talking with Angie at the balcony of the Cheesecake Factory that’s located at Union Square at the top of Macy’s. Anyway, across the street is Tiffany’s and one of Angie’s lottery fantasies is to march into the store just wearing some PJ’s and a bath robe and just start shopping. When the clerk comes up to escort her out, she just start pulling out wads of cash from her robe. Great fantasy**

Then there is the other coin, that we are living in The Matrix, just sleepwalking our way through life. Trapped in a dream, or I guess nightmare and we are looking for a way to break out of the haze we are in. Looking to be awake for the first time, or to awaken again to the person that we were before we got trapped in our life.

Not sure where I am in regards to these two theories. On the one hand, I have def. woken up from the dream that I was in, living within that moment of perfectness and happiness. That moment is gone and I have been jettison back into the waking world. On the other hand, the life that I am living now feels like I am just going through the motions. Day in and day out the same thing. I long to break out of the sleep that has taken over my body and mind. However, all of my attempts so far have failed.

So here I am, neither living in the world of my dreams nor being alive and awake in the world that I’m in. Question is where do I go from here.