Monthly Archives: October 2000

OK going to bed, hopefully

OK going to bed, hopefully he doesn’t kill me while I’m sleeping
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The bastard is drunk….Help Me!!!

The bastard is drunk….Help Me!!!
Current mood: scared
Current music: drunken rantings of the bastard roommate

The reason that I’m aggrivatted

The reason that I’m aggrivatted is cause the bastard is out here in the living room read Maxim, eating, and doing shots of whiskey and coke. The thing is that he was making so much noise in the kitchen and I’m afraid to go in there to see how many dishes he broke. **sigh** I REALLY don’t want to hate him, but just his presence is enough to raise the hair on my back and to make me aggrivated. Maybe I should goto sleep. I’m sure listening to Manson isn’t helping my aggrivation. Maybe something soothing, like Seal or Sade would be better.
Current mood: aggravated
Current music: Marilyn Manson – Mechanical Animals

The one where I get recharged by my girl and we spend money

Friday after work, I took BART to Berkeley to meet my girl at Shawn’s old place. From there, we drove up to Vallejo and had dinner at Chevy’s. It was pretty good except that I still don’t have a Driver licence so I could only order virgin drinks. That sucked cause I really wanted a Midori Margarita. **sigh** Dinner was good anyway. I had lemon chicken and portabello mushroom fajitas. Suzanne had a chicken burrito…
on a side note, you know how they have the red torttia chip shaped like a cactus and that yellow stuff that taste like some kind of corn bread. Can you and are you suppose to eat that, or is it like parsely? I liked the yellow stuff, but Suzanne thought it tasted terrible…
So after dinner, I tried to hook up my VCR to her T.V., but I was having problems with it, so I kind of gave up on it. We were going to watch Escaflowne, but ended up in bed instead. How strange? 😉
The next thing I knew it was 9:00 and we were getting ready to go shopping. Suzanne needed to get basicly a whole new wardrobe for B&N and I needed some shoes. So we drove up to Vacaville cause I needed to drop off The Sims to April. I bought it and it’s a good game, but I just couldn’t really get into it. Maybe April will have better luck than I did. Anyway, we get to April’s and she is asleep, but her mom goes to wake her up. She doesn’t look to good and I tell her, which was probably something that I shouldn’t have said. But it’s me, Joe. It’s not like April and I are strangers or anything. But, it was rude of me and I apoligized to her later.
After April’s, Suzanne and I went to Applebee’s for lunch. Again, without an ID, I couldn’t order alcohol, which meant no mudslide drink for me. Suzanne accussed me of being a girly drinker. Which I am, I admit. I like the sweet and foo-foo drinks, but I like to drink the hard stuff too.
We were going to goto Sac to go shopping and to visit Lesa and Kurt, but I didn’t have Kurt’s number in my planner and no one was home at Lesa’s. So we decided just to go shopping at the outlet stores in Vacaville. So for the next 4 hours, we went around half of the factory stores (the Gap and Levi side), shopping for clothes for Suzanne and shoes for myself. At the Bulgle Boy Store, I ended up buying 2 turttlenecks and two long sleeve shirts for myself, since everything was 50% off. I was also looking for some Khaki’s but I didn’t find any that I liked. Suzanne got a number of items for work. Suzanne is not really a big shopper and is kinda stingy with her money. O.K. she’s not stingy with her money, but she would rather spend it on her friends than herself. So it was a real task to get her to buy stuff, but once she got rolling, she was able to get several outfits for herself.
The best place that we stopped in was the London Fog Store. I want a trench coat SSSSSSSOOOOOOO bad. They looked so good on me. Me and Suzanne had fun trying on the different coats and hats in the shop. I saw a couple of jackets that I might get my dad & mom for X-Mas. The only thing that I wasn’t able to find was shoes. The Vans shop had several shoes that I wanted, but the tounges on the shoes were so huge, that I couldn’t fit my feet into the shoe.
After we were done at the outlet stores, we went to Solano Mall, where I bought Suzanne this skirt at Sears that she had her eye on. Then we went to Payless Shoes to look for shoes. We found several shoes that we wanted to buy, but they either didn’t have the size or there was something wrong with the shoe, like a stain on the shoe or something. We went to several shoe stores and at one store, Suzanne got a pair of boots. We headed down to Best Buy to look for CD Players for me. I want a CD Player to use to listen to music while I sleep. But I want one that can read CD-RW’s too. So far there are only off brand CD players that do this. There was a Phillips player that could read CD-RW’s, but I really want a Sony one. I just trust the Sony name, that’s all. I looked at systems too and there were a couple that could read CD-RW’s and were surround systems. But I think that I’m going to wait awhile. In the back of my mind, I’m thinking about seeing about getting a DVD player with a hardware decoder. I also want to get a new graphics card with a TV out so that I can hook the DVD to a regular TV. The master plan was to make the computer the entertainment center. But I don’t know what I’m going to do anymore. Anyway, after that, we left to go back to Vallejo and we stopped by another Payless and we were able to find shoes that we wanted. I got some steel toed shoes; I have been wanting some for awhile so it was cool to finnaly get some. So after that, we went back to Suzanne’s and while she was cooking dinner, I was able to get the VCR working. So now, she has triple the amount of channels that she got before. For dinner she broiled chicken, and we also had potatoes and a pasta salad. It was a simple dinner, but very fulfilling. After that we layed in bed and watched SNL. It wasn’t that funny, but it was funnier than it had been in awhile. The sad thing is that Cheri O’Terri has left the show. Emimmin was the guess singer and he had Dido with him for Stan. Emimmin was O.K., but I thought Dido sounded better even though she had only a chorus to sing.
This weekend was what I needed after the horrible week that I had been having. Suzanne seemed to recharge my batteries and now I am ready to buckle down and deal with school and work and anything else that will come along. I’m sure that will be the car. **sigh** I hope they can fix it. I’ve had the metro for a long time and at time I have treated it like shit, but I really love that car and I want it to last me at least a couple of more years before I get a new car.
Anyway, back to Suzanne. I love being next to Suzanne, just laying down next to her and feeling our skins touch. I just want to hold her and I want her to hold me. I feel at peace with the world and I can forget things like my bastard roommate trying to cook in the kitchen breaking everything in the sink. Maybe if he would wash the dishes sometimes…
but I digress…
It’s just such a conforting feeling to love someone and to be loved by someone. Like I said before, when I’m in her arms, for a time, I can feel safe and secure and I don’t have to worry about what’s going on in the world around me.
OK. That was my weekend. Up for this week, I find out how much car repairs will be, countdown to midterms begins, and maybe I’ll get around to going to DMV and taking a test to get a new licence.
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Why do I let hate

Why do I let hate and rage build inside of me. I was doing O.K. until I started thinking about my history class. There is this guy in the class who used to work at the bookstore. He was a good person and I thought that we were friends, but he when behind my back and reported me. I didn’t do anything, and even if I did, nothing major would have happened (It’s all about the clout that you carry). ANyway, I was hurt that he was one of the people that told on me. So, we are in this class and he is talking to me like we are buddy buddy or something. It made me so mad, so I was walking to class thinking about where to sit so that I wouldn’t have to deal with him. And that basicly set the mood swing rolling. Of course, it turned quickly from hating Joran (the guy in my history class) to being frustrated at Suzanne regarding a conversation that we had last night. I have just been in a real bad mood today. At work it turns from hate to sadness and depression so of course what do I do but goto Taco Bell/KFC and gourge myself on chicken and taco’s (Why couldn’t I be one of those depress people that starve, I’m so fat) . So has I’m comning home,and I am almost in tears has I park the van. I try calling my family but no one’s home. I don’t want to call Suzanne at work cause….well, that’s another story. It’s not because of suzanne though. So I’m walking home and decide to goto the market and get some cheesecake (there’s a reason for that, I’ll go into it later.) to cheer me up. Has I’m checking out, my cell rings and it’s my mom. We talked for about 30min about everything. I didn’t really get into what was bothering me, but she didn’t really asked. We just talked, and it felt so good. It just reminds me how much i miss my family. So I’m home now with my peach soda and my cheescake. They are all good and stuff, but what I really want is to see suzanne and to have her hold me in her arms. I’m sure that would make me feel much better
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So the Ren Faire was

So the Ren Faire was fun. I was worried about Shawn being by himself and having to deal with Suzanne and I being luvvy duvvy to each other, but he seemed to have a good time. The wierdest thing about the faire was this was the first time that I didn’t run into or see anybody that I knew. The only person that I recognized was Brent at the Admission booth. Usually I see or recognize people working the booths or who are actors, but this year there was no one. Another sign that I’m getting old?
There were lots of people checking both Suzanne and I out. Most of the guys were checking Suzanne out, but I did get a few stares. Something about being a couple that makes both people look a little more beautiful or handsome.
I’m not a jealous guy, but……
….O.K. They have this royal feast where you get a full meal and entertainment. One of the entertainers just could not keep his hands off of Suzanne. Like he was giving her a massage and kept giving her one, and he forgot my food twice. I’m not jealous, just….hmmm, annoyed maybe. The fact that I’m still “annoyed” by it might mean that I was a little threatened. But i can’t really say anything since I was sticking dollars into the breast of the serving girls with my mouth. **sigh** I love the Ren Faire.
I bought stuff, but nothing really for me. I got Amber (my boss) this pewter fairy. I got Suzanne a small whip; one of them cat o’ nine tails. And got Terresa from work a wooden shot glass. I don’t know why I did that. It’s not like I’m ever going to get together with her or that we are ever going to be the friends that we once were. It was more out of habit, I guess. But I think that this will be the last shot glass that I get for her.
So I didn’t get anything for me. I’m surprised since I finally had money to buy a cloak this year. But I didn’t get it. I think this year I’m going to pass again, since I need to get the car fixed and fly up for Thanksgiving. Maybe next year. I think that I will get some bracers when I go back. Those will be cool to wear.
Overall it was a totally different experience than I expected to have. The plan was for a drunken raucous time with the guys, drinking our ale and mead, flirting with the blossoming whenches, and just being loud. But just being with Suzanne, walking around hand in hand, being able to hold and to touch each other, it was so much better in some ways, and I’m glad things worked out the way that they did.
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**sigh** I have been more

**sigh** I have been more tired than usual the last couple of days. I’ve also have just been lazy; too lazy to keep up my journal. Part of the problem is that I’m just tired, so that I’m not even on my computer has much. I sit at the desk and stuff, but ususally, I’m just listening to music and not actually doing any work or playing any games. I think part of the problem is that I am self-conscious about putting anything up that might offend Suzanne somehow. Now that I have her back, I don’t want to do anything or say anything that jepadize our relationship. Yet, if I try to censor myself, what is the point of the journal anyway. Well, I’m going to let that simmer for awhile and try to fill in the last two weeks.
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God I want to stay

God I want to stay home today.
But I’m going to class, don’t worry.
Sorry about not putting up an entry, but I was slightly intoxicated last night. Mike made me watch In God’s Hands. Oh it was bad. The surfing shots were pretty good, but the storyline was soooooo bad. I had to have a straight shot of tequilla just to watch it. I actually should have had two, but I didn’t eat much all day and that one shot hit me hard. Anyway, I think the movie would have been much better has a gay porn. There were LOTS of cute guys in the movie. At least there would have been a better plot than what the movie had.
O.K. Let me get going to school.
Current mood: happy
Current music: Watching Northern Exposure on T.V. (God I miss that show)

I hope my honey is

I hope my honey is having a good time at her orientation @ B&N. Tech. they are considered the enemy of college bookstores, but I’ll still love her. heh.
Mike will help me move the futon up after he takes a nap. He got home late also. I’m still kinda tired, but I can’t go back to sleep.
Anyway, I waiting for people to call me back, so I need to get off the line. Full update tonight, promise.
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