Monthly Archives: December 2002

BTW, this New Years….

That is all. Enjoy
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Moments of intense spirituality

Listening to Marvin Gaye’s What’s Going On
Making out with Suzanne at Lake Berryessa on a rainy night in my Metro
Seeing the city of San Francisco has I come across the Bay Bridge
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Just went and saw LOTR:TTT

Just went and saw LOTR:TTT with my brother. Wasn’t sure if he would like it, but he loved it and now wants to see the first movie. It was a good movie and seemed to go quicker than the last movie. Still, there was something in the movie that bothered me. Unfortunately, I can’t put my finger on it. Maybe I’ll figure it out when the DVD comes out. 2 down and 1 to go.
Earlier today, Eric and I transfered pictures out of old photo albums into new ones. **sigh** There are so many pictures and memories in those albums. I think that the next time that I come up, I am going to bring my scanner with me and just spend the whole time scanning pictures. If I have room, I might take onw album home with me. We’ll see.
I think that I have decided not to goto Napa for new years. Some people will be pissed off at me, but I don’t think that I will be in a good mood or be able to fake it. And I don’t want to bring people down with me. I wish that I had a roof to go up on and watch the fireworks that they have at Lake Merced. Maybe, I’ll just drive down the coast and spend it out on a beach somewhere. It’s probably really dramatic sounding, but if I can’t be with Suzanne, then what is the point.
Part of me thinks that I should just pull away from my friends and the world; what I usually do every couple of years, it seems. I think it is the rain and cold talking and I hope the feelings will just disappear.
Anyway, the Xmas vacation has been fun and relaxing. I didn’t do anything really, but it’s always been about being around the family and the safety and security that I feel. As always, my thoughts turn to moving up here. Is there anything in CA that I can’t do here in WA? Well, be with Suzanne, for starters. I know that Suzanne is the main reason that I am still in the Bay Area; O.K. so the city has something to do with it too. But I can see myself moving to Seatle or Tacoma; it was a dream at one time to do such a thing. Still, it is hard to get up and move to a new place. And I still consider San Francisco my domain, even if I hole myself up in one little foggy corner of it.
**sigh** I wish I hadn’t deleted my Livejournal’s, so I can’t se what I wrote at this time a year ago. I guess I’ll have to wait until I get back. I don’t have too many New Years resolutions…let’s see:
The weight thing is going O.K. I glad I got it from almost 200 to the 180’s (179 on my parents scale, 189 on the work scale). I think that I want to get to 175, however I also need to get more specific on the diet and exercising. I need to start countig calories and focusing on building muscles and crunching my gut. Also need to be more strict with the diet/exercising. I have slacked off a bit; but with Mike going to the gym with me once again, that should help me out.
Def. need to wok on budgeting and saving money. Unfortunately not too many places to cut right now. The fact that I even thought about getting rid of the DSL shows the seriousness of the situation. Of course I’m not; however I might go down on the speed (from 768kbps-1.5Mbps to 384kbps-768kbps). That would save me $10, or I could go even lower. I doubt that will happen though; I love my fast speen too much. So it comes to not eating out and shopping frugally. Changing my rent in May will really help me out also, it’s just a matter of surviving until then. I’ll probably go looking for a second job and stick too it this time.
Still, there are some things that I want to get and things/places I want to goto. I really need a new larger hard drive for my computer, more than anything else. However, I have also been thinking about just getting a new computer. **sigh** Much more like wishful thinking. However, we’ll see how the year goes. If I’ve been good, then I just might treat myself.
I also want to goto a WWE wrestling event. Something always happens that keeps me from going to one. Actually, Wrestlemania is happening in Seattle this year; tickets go on sale in two weeks. Well, i’m not going to that, but I am determined to goto one this year.
Also determined to goto the Ren Faire this year. Regardless of what happens in my life, I am going to go. And this year, hopefully will be the year I get the cloak that I have denied myself for all of these years.
I’m sure that there are others, but blah, this is more like a Xmas list than anything else. I think what I really want is my life to get back on track. If I get back with Suzanne, I want to move forward and build or relationship so that it is ready for marriage. If we don’t get back together, I want to have the strength to move on with my life and to not let it fade away.
O.K. need to get off the computer. Will hopefully talk more later.
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The last Friday Five of the year…

1. What was your biggest accomplishment this year? My graduation from college after MANY, MANY, long years.
2. What was your biggest disappointment? The breakup of my relationship with Suzanne. It was really unexpected and it really hit me hard.
3. Will you be making any New Year’s resolutions? **sigh** Still thinking about it; I got 3 days left to decide.
4. Where will you be at midnight? Do you wish you could be somewhere else? I was suppose to attend a party in Napa with my friends. However, I am thinking about flaking out and just staying home. I really don’t have a reason to celebrate this year. I wish that I could hang out with Suzanne, but that’s not going to happen.
5. Aside from (possibly) staying up late, do you have any other New Year’s traditions? Not really. I try to have some champagne that night, but that’s about it.
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**sigh** Yes, my brother is

**sigh** Yes, my brother is still an idiot.
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My brother: he has grown

My brother: he has grown up a bit, but he can still be an idiot. Will explain more later after I talk to him (whenever he reads this).
I want to go out and watch a movie, but not sure if it will happen today. Think that I will have mom give me a facial today.
God I love vacations.
Need a reason to go celebrate New Years. Think that I would much rather spend it in quiet meditation i.e. getting drunk by myself. We’ll see, it could just be the WA rain talking.
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Year in review – Media

Watching T.V. at home and decided to give some of my own thoughts to the year in review.
I guess the main thing is the continual demise of music as we know it. Number one on my list is Avril Lavigne for destroying music:
“Rock & roll wild child Avril Lavigne hit big in summer 2002 with her spiky-fun debut song “Complicated,” shifting pop music into a different direction. Lavigne, who was 17 at the time, didn’t seem concerned with the glamor of the TRL-dominated pop world and such confidence allowed her star power to soar.”
Anyway. I keep on hearing her described as some punk-pop princess. If she is pop, then that is a sad, sad way for punk music to die. Wearing ties does not make you cutting edge. Ms. Lavigne is def. one of the worse things to come out of 2002.
Another has to be Ashanti. She is not a bad singer, but what did she do? She made guest appearances on every rapper’s album. And then she rode Notorious B.I.G. coattails forever on Foolish and Unfoolish. And then Soul Train had the nerve to give her the Aretha Franklin Award over Alicia Keys or India.Arie or anyone else. It’s a sad, sad state of affairs.
O.K. Good Charlotte. They do absolutely nothing for me. Don’t see what the big deal is with them.
**sigh** Christina, Christina….or X-Tina. Why? That’s all I want to know.
And do we really care about J.Lo and who the hell’s she’s marrying this time. Is it 3 or 4 Jenny?
And please, why is Jennifer Love Hewitt STILL putting out albums?
I mean the whole year would have been lost if it wasn’t for Nora Jones. I personally thank Ms. Jones for saving me from the rest of the filth and garbage that was put out this year. If you have not heard this album, then you need to go out and get it now.
I also have to thank Missy Elliot and Timberland from saving me from P Diddy and…well mainly P Diddy and his quest to destroy Rap and HipHop as we know it. Just flip it and reverse it baby.
Dave Matthews Band also contributed to saving music, even if it was a somewhat diluted album called Busted Stuff. The original LilyWhite Sessions sound so much better.
I think the biggest event for me was discovering Marvin Gaye’s What’s Going On. I’ve heard the song before, but this year, I heard the entire album. It might be heretical, but that album has bought me closer to God than anything in a long time.
What else? Movie wise, I’ve been out of the loop since the 2nd part of the year. Spiderman delivered, Star Wars: Episode II was an improvement, and Men In Black II was a big disappointment
I was also out of the loop for most of the televison seasons. Although I have to thank FOX for American Idol, or at least the begining episodes. “It was suppose to be sung like that!”. **sigh** Good times. Also enjoyed the Buffy the Vampire season and The Osbournes. Wrestling kinda sucked this year.
Oh, thank god for another season of The Price Is Right. Bob Barker is still alive and there is still some good in the world.
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The Greyhound trip…

Well, it wasn’t as bad has I thought it would be. Tried to get Angie to take me to the bus terminal or at least to BART, but her meeting got rescheduled. So I decided to take a taxi, cause I really didn’t want to lug my luggage up the hill to the bus stop and then onto a bus and then onto BART. $25 to get from my house near SF State to the Transbay Terminal. Oy vey is all I have to say; thank god I don’t have to depend on a taxi to get around town or I would def. be broke.
So I get to the Greyhound terminal and it is just dirty and run down, with bums all over the place; your typical SF day. And there is a line that is not moving of people waiting to get their tickets. I’m glad I got their earlier than what I was planning too. So eventually I get my ticket, and I go and wait in line for my bus, but there is one that is leaving 30 min earlier and I get put aboard that one.
Well, the bus smelled funny, and there was a kid on board, but there were only 5 other people on the bus. So we went on our merry way, first to Oakland, then to Sacramento. It was interesting to have someone else drive through the traffic; it gave me alot of time to observe other drivers and take a look at the cities. I didn’t know that there was a lighthouse on Yebra Burena Island. And you wouldn’t believe all the nose pickers that I saw. The other interesting thing is that I could have sworn that I saw Amber Price’s brother, Ryan while we were stuck in traffic in Vallejo.
So I make it up to Sacramento 2 hours ahead of schedule. The Sacramento station is just a mess; people all over the place and no one knows what’s going on. I get in one of the lines hoping that it is the right line that I need to be in. In this line are some very angry people; just bitching and complaining. Oh man, I had to put up with an hour of this before the line started to move. I eventually get dumped on a bus, luckily it is an express bus that stops at fewer places. I ended up in a seat that didn’t recline sitting next to some guy from Stickton going to Vancouver, WA to see his family. I wish that I had gotten a seat next to the buisnessman with his laptop. Him and the people around him were watching Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within on DVD. Of course, there was a ghetto ass family on the bus that opened a huge bag of cornnuts, which stanked up the whole place. They did have a little girl with them, but she was well behaved and didn’t cry too much.
We drive up to Redding and make our first stop. At the bus stop, we find out that our bus is going to be a super express, meaning that we will only make a couple of 10min stops and go almost nonstop to Portland. I tried to get some slepp, but my seat didn’t recline, which sucked. Also, the guy next to me was bored and wouldn’t shut up. He was bugging me and his sisters; eventually, they told him to shut up. It was cool driving through Oregon, looking at the snow on the ground and passing through the cities.
We ended up in Portland around 4/5am. Compared to the other bus stations, Portland was like the Hilton or something. I decided to spend money on food and got some pancakes, bacon, toast, and coffee for $5. It was SO GOOD. Not sure if that was cause of the time I spent on the bus or what. I also blew some quarters on the Adams Family pinball game that they had there. I used to play that game all the time with Sam Arintok at Solano. Oh man, have I lost all of my pinball skills, I didn’t even get a replay.
So around 7am, we get back on another bus and head up to Tacoma, which too about 3hrs. So I ended up in Tacoma around 11am, 3 hours ahead of schedule. Overall, it wasn’t that bad of a trip and I should survive the trip back. **knock on wood**
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“Booty call bitch”? That’s def.

“Booty call bitch”? That’s def. a new one.
Anyway, I made it up here in one piece. Will talk about the trip later. Think I am going to sleep so that I don’t wake up everybody.
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“No man is a failure who has friends”

Justed watched It’s A Wonderful Life and now I am a slobbering mess. Thank God my family is asleep.
Merry Xmas everybody
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