Monthly Archives: May 2001

Just got back from The Boathouse with my bosses, Amber and Rob. They bought me Beer and Onion Rings for my B-Day. Yay! Amber also got me a jacket, cause she knows it’s cold out at the warehouse. She’s my second mom.
O. K. I am going to lay on the couch and just feel the buzz that I got going and then later, homework and laundry. Oh what fun.
I hope that Jason finishes my computer this weekend…
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Cause lets face it, fat just sometimes taste that good.
Anyway, I got my fries and I also got some of that green ketchup.
When I poured it out of the packet, I was really hesitant to try it. I swear it look like some stuff out of a baby’s diaper.
But I toughed it and ate it; it taste just like regular red ketchup. I think that I have some packets left. I should take a picture of what it looks like.
**sigh** I just had to share that
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Gawd!!!!
**picks his underwear**
I need to do laundry tonight. I have no more good underwear.
I have clean underwear, but it’s stuff that has shrunk and rides up my ass. But it’s also tigger stuff, and I don’t want to give it up yet.
O.K. this pair isn’t Tigger, it’s actually white tiger striped (or zebra striped **rolls my eyes**) from Joe Boxer. It is a real soft and nice pair of underwear. Except that it is riding up my legs and making my uncomfortable. I’ll have to go underwear shopping sometime next month.
I also should display my underwear collection in a photo shoot. I was going to do it a couple of months ago; I even went as far as taking some pictures. But I never got around to posting them. Maybe after finals….
Meanwhile, I need to goto the bathroom to adjust myself….
Poop
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Has stupid of a guy that I can be; and I admit, I can be a stupid fuck sometimes, it is such a relief that I go on Livejournal and find guys that are even more stupid and fucked up than I am.
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I never realized how ugly men are until I started looking at the NakedParts LJ…I mean some of them (I’m talking about penises; or is it penisi) look nice. But overall, uugghhh. Even looking at myself, I’m just thinking “God, How could any girl even stand to be around me or any guy. And then the fact that they’ve fondled them or put them in their mouths or in other parts of their body. It’s just a wonder that the whole female population isn’t lesbian.
Now women, with their breast and their vagina’s; now those are so inviting, so arousing, so sexy.
I don’t know, maybe I’m just horny or something.
O.K. time to watch Price Is Right….
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I’m sure that Suzanne is pissed at me for not talking to her yesterday. I had forgotten that I had turned the ringer off on my phone until I had read her LJ. And I actually tried calling her when the computer crashed, yet again. (It had taken 3 crashes just to get on the internet) Anyway, I decided that I didn’t want to talk to anybody; I just wanted to be alone in my misery and sadness. So I turned off the computer, turned off the cell phone, and crawled into bed.
I know this pissed her off; I’m sure the secret journals and the hidden posts are just screaming at what a selfish bastard that I am. Actually, I have changed. I wanted to withdraw into myself for a long time now. And I actually would like nothing better than to stay hidden and withdrawn for a while longer. But, if I did that, then she would really be mad. So I will call her in a couple of hours. We are going on a picnic on Saturday in Golden Gate Park. hopefully, it will be a beautiful day.
**sigh** We are so different; what kind of future can we have? I just deal with it with my usual advoidance. Like they say, it is easier to jump off of a cliff with your eyes close.
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So I took a day off to catch up on work. It was a big dissapointment. I hardly got anything done. I got some reading done for my other classes, but I got nowhere on this big internet paper I have to do. It’s for my U.S. History class and we have to use this website for our sources. I just can’t figure out what to do my paper on, and I have two weeks left to do it. This doesn’t include the other papers that I have to do for other classes. **sigh** I should have dropped out of school a long time ago.
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Well, it looks like my PMS attack is mostly over. I am still a little gassy feeling, but hopefully that wil go away as the day passes.
It is so wierd comming back to work, even though I only missed one day. Nothing has changed, but it sometimes feel like I’m at a new job or something.
I am so ready to throw my computer out the window. **sigh** I’ll have to open it up and take a look at it after work today. I’ve narrow it down to the DVD, among other things. I think I need to reinstall windows, but I think that the connector to the DVD is broken. I turned it off early last night, like at around 10:30, because I was so tired to restarting it. Usually I have it running from 8am to 1am every day.
Well, the night before, Justin stayed up all night at the computer lab working on a project for his class. So when he came home from class, I turned off my ringer on my phone so it wouldn’t wake him. He hasn’t really been able to get any sleep cause he’s had school and work. I even went to bed early so that he could sleep; which sucked cause I couldn’t get to sleep until late. And then this morning, he was sleeping all through his alarm. I almost threw his clock out the window, but he finally woke up. poop. Well, I should just get use to it cause I will have to pull a couple of all-nighter in a couple of weeks for my class.
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YOU WILL CURSE THE DAY YOU DID NOT DO, ALL THAT THE PHANTOM ASK OF YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GGGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Current music: The Phantom Of The Opera – All I Ask Of You (reprise)

Smell like Matt is burning something in the kitchen. I am almost afraid to go out to see. I think that I will turn on the fan and wait for the fire alarm to go off.
A bit calmer than before. I decided to do my Aikido Final. It is a take home final and it is also fill in the blanks. Even a stupid fuck up like myself shouldn’t; be able to screw it up. At least I can say that I accomplished something.
The tears are gathering up in my eyes. Not sure if they are from my depression or The Phantom of the Opera that I’m listening to. I think it is cause of the smoke that is in my room.
I think that I’m going to clean my room. That will be a second accomplishment and might get the ball rolling for me. But then, I’m always cleaning my room, never winning, always in battle. Much like my life.
Poop, I forgot to go get a money order for my car insurance. Hmmm, I also forgot to get my lottery ticket. So much for wishing on that fallen star the other night. And I still need to move my car. I think that I will wait until midnight and then park it. If I can park it close on the street, I will. Otherwise, I think that I will pay the $2 to park in the garage.
What the hell is he burning?
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