From her website:
What can I say about Joe? I used to have a lot to say. He is wonderful and specil and beautiful and kind and smart and sexy and I love him and I let him go.
Mental note, don’t let anybody mike to come up with passwords. Totally predictable…
Anyway, it was good to goto her site, and April’s also. I’m glad that both of them seem to be doing well. The two of them are probably the closest friends that I have. They know so much about me and I have shared so much with them over time. And it’s also good to know that they have people to lean on; April has her mysterious “S” and Suzanne has all of her friends. I think the thing is that they are not afraid to goto others for help and support. Myself on the other hand, am more hesitant to open up my problems to my friends. I have done so with Lesa, Mew, and the Vacaville gang. However, I still am trying to solve these things by myself.
**side note** I miss livejournal and all of the “real” journals that were on there without stumbling over all of these “RPG” journals for Brittany, Christina, and fucking Justin Timberlake. I’m sorry for being so judgemental, but I can not for the life of me see what the appeal of it is.
Anyway, so new experiment time. No more mooning over Suzanne in this journal. I’ve probably promised this before, but I am going to try again. Granted, the reason I got this Blurty was because it was away from Livejournal and Suzanne so I could talk about her and get my thoughts out. And while there is nothing wrong with thinking and talking about Suzanne….O.K. moaning and bitching over Suzanne…, I should be using this to strenghten my writing or something. Not that I want millions of adoring fans flocking to my blurty to see my latest literary work of art. However, I do want to use this chance to explore and to expand myself. I made compromises and gave up things for my relationship with Suzanne. Now that I am free from the relational obligations, I want to try to break out of my mold a bit. So, no more Suzanne and bitching and moaning….”woe is me”, blah, blah….Hmmm….How about less Suzanne and less bitching/moaning. Anyway, like I said before, I’ve made this promise before. Hopefully, this time it will last a little longer.
Current mood: optimistic
Current music: Pink – Just Like A Pill
A 40-something rediscovering life in California