Daily Archives: August 15, 2004

2 pills are better than 1

I’m not sure if it is the depression or the prozac, but I feel worse than before. Actually, I don’t feel too depressed, but I have been listless and with no energy the entire day. I don’t think that I stayed up too late on Saturday, maybe to 1am (which is early considering that I usually stay up to 4am). I woke up early around 7-8am and then slept on and off the rest of the day. I also don’t remember much about what I did Saturday, except that I did go out for a walk and I bought dinner at Safeway. Also, Barbara came back from seeing her son in Colorado. Anyway, prozac can cause some people to become sleepy and tired. If I am this way tomorrow at work, then maybe I’ll start taking my pills at night.
Tomorrow is the first week without Tim. **sigh** I am really going to miss him. But I still have Mark and I will have Danny, so that is something. Hopefully there will be clear sailing for the next three weeks. I’ll be working late for the next two weeks, so that should keep me busy and from being depressed.

A Glance At The Past…

I put up a new photo gallery here. It’s actually something that Lesa put together and mailed to me recently. Some of the pictures are ones that I took and have sent to herr over the years. But has I look over all of the pictures, especially the ones that I am in, I look at my smiling face and wonder if I was really happy when the picture was taken, or was I just putting on a face for the camera. It’s sad too because most of the pictures, I hardly remember. It’s like there is a fog covering my brain when it comes to these memories.

Taurus – Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You tend to stick with relationships – through the good and the bad.
You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice.
Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly… saving yourself from heartbreak.

Your negative traits:

Money is very important to you, so much so that it’s a cause of arguments in relationships.
If your lover isn’t loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander…
You tend to keep things inside – so your partner may not know when or why you’re upset.

Your ideal partner:

Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you.
Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave.
A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart.

Your dating style:

Comfortable and traditional. You’d love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant.

Your seduction style:

Love comes first for you before you’d even think of intimacy.
Traditional: you’re not a cold fish – but you’re not into kink either.
Pleasing… you always make sure that your partner is having a good time.

Tips for the future:

Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you.
Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best.
Ligthen up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions.

Best place to meet someone online:

American Singles – peek in on how much potential dates make, and what they do for a living.

Best color to attract mate: Pale blue

Best day for a date: Friday

Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

Hot Flashes

The Doctors have asked me if I have been sleeping well. I haven’t and Dr. Grace gave me a leaflet on insomnia. And I guess that is part of the problem. I’ve cut down on caffiene and am trying to goto sleep earlier and get a healthy sleep pattern going (Although I have failed miserably the last two nights). However, that is only part of the problem.
The other reason why I can’t sleep is because I am so hot, or rather that my body temperature is so hot. I don’t have a fever or anything (Well, I don’t think that I do) it’s just that my skin gets so hot that it heats up the bed and I can’t sleep. This is with my mink blankets off of the bed. When Suzanne and I were together, she would comment about how warm my body would get when we were laying together in bed. I kinda doubted it because I have always been one that gets cold easily. I mean I rarely wear shorts and will wear a jacket in pretty warm weather. My mother always said that I was cold-blooded and needed to take iron. Anyways, now when I sleep in my bed, I am in constant search for a cool place to lay in. Eventually, I warm up the entire area of the bed. I wish that I was back at Park Merced, then I could sleep on the hardwood floors. Or if I lived alone, I would go out and sleep on the kitchen floor or in the bathtub.
Maybe it’s because I have no one to keep warm at night and my body heat has no place to goto…