Daily Archives: October 16, 2003

Yes, I am mildly bored and un motivated. I should be working in the accounting cage and stuff. But I’m not. I should be cleaning the aisles and stuff. But I’m not. I should be in the bathroom, taking a piss. But I’m not.

Going out with Angie tonight; she is taking me out to dinner and to go see Kill Bill,
Vol 1. I still need to repay her cousin for the bail out at the bar on Angie’s birthday.

Decided to just fuck the parking tickets and pay them later. It’ll cost more, but I will stress less about money. And I think that is what it’s all about. Not stressing over everything, just going with the flow and dealing with what life throws at you. Or something like that….

Thinking about Thanksgiving…I could just skip it and wait until Xmas to see the family. There are tons of places that I could go for Thanksgiving Dinner so I wouldn’t be alone at a Denny’s or Lyons or something. Yes, I did spend one Thanksgiving eating by myself at a Lyons. Perhaps one day, I’ll tell the tale.

Don’t know what is in the air. There is just this…blahness all around me. Just seems like alot of things that have happened to me. Not to me, but around me. Just lately, it seems. Tim is off on a family emergency; Peter is leaving. Barbara is dealing with Keisha and things, etc., etc. I’m dealing with my own lack of motivation. It’s not full blown depression, just…lack of motivation. Still, at least I have enough energy to try and get out of it, regardless of how pitiful it is.

O.K. enough blah, blah, blahing. I need to clean up and goto the store to see the boss.

Have a slight case of the caffeine shakes going on. The Little Debbie doughnut that I had probably didn’t help either. It wasn’t a Krispy Kreme doughnut, but it was still good in its own unique way.

Have to finish paying the bills tonight. Student Loans sites were down last night. Still not sure how much money I’ll have to spend on the Ren faire. I’ll need enough for a costume and some food.

I kinda like this journaling without being seen. Messing around with the Menu script that I downloaded last night. Doesn’t seem to work with old Apple OS though. Need to goto the store today and see if it works with Safari. I might have to find another menu to use. Not too many people I know use Apples, however, I do want to be a responsible web author and have compatibility with the most…things. Man I can’t think.

Phone battery is dead. Needed to call some people. Guess it will have to wait until I get home.

O.K. Sun glare is starting to move over my monitor, which means that I should get up and do some work. 😛

Why is it when I know I don’t have any money is when I get the urge to go shopping. And when I do have money and try to spend it, I can’t.

Website is coming along somewhat. Trying to keep the momentum going. Who know, maybe I’ll be done by the end of the month or something.

Anyway, what do I want. I want a new cell phone via AT&T online (they have instant rebates as oppose to mail in). Also want a new computer, or at least a quieter case. I want ice cream and cookies and cereal. I want a gym membership that I will rarely use. I want a new video card so that I can hook up my PS2 to my monitor and play DDR (Although it would probably be easier and cheaper just to buy a TV.)

Yawn….should get to sleep. Have to go in and talk to Brian in the afternoon.