Monthly Archives: June 2003

I said those word back in 1995, 96, 97, when I had a Acer P60 computer with a whopping 32MB of RAM and 650MB Hard Drive.

I find myself uttering those same words, except now I have a 120GB hard drvie, a AMD Althon 1.2
GHz computer and 512MB of RAM. Already regretting getting this hard drive, but at $79 after rebates, how can I say no. Just need to make sure I fill out the rebate forms correctly. One wrong move like forgetting to dot an “I” or crossing a “t” and
there goes my rebate.

Just went through my system and I think I’m ready for the grand task of installing a new hard drive. I back up all of my stuff and haven’t uploaded much since I’ve been back on the internet, so no worries there. Tomorrow, I’ll move the computer into the kitchen and operate from there. **fingers crossed**

Finished Harry Potter and was very satisfied with it. Even if I didn’t like Harry Potter, at $9.99, it was too good of a deal to pass up. Of course, I have to reread it over again, but I’ll wait until after inventory is done.

My camera is loaded with pictures, but I haven’t been inclined to download them to my computer. Not sure why, just not
inclined.

Thursday, Amy and I are going out to dinner and seeing the new Sinbad movie, if my free passes ever arrive. Haven’t seen Amy for awhile and this is long overdue.

I haven’t seen alot of my friends in awhile (except for Angie). Between being busy with everything at work, moving to a new place, and my own personal demons, I’ve been kinda withdrawn. But work is a good place for me, because it focuses me to think about other things instead of staying at home brooding over a particular thing. Still, I think Tim is starting to get worried about me, I’m sure he would talk to me if he knew how late I was working.

**sigh** I have books from the library that I checked out, but after reading Harry Potter, I don’t have the slightest interest in them. I should read one of them at least.

So it’s Wednesday (gawd it’s only Wednesday) and I’m already looking towards the weekend (well, after inventory). Going to try and by tickets Thursday night to go and see my family. Def. looking like the last week of July. Also need to take time off just to take time out. Tim’s right at the fact that I worry way too much about work. Bu tsomeone has too, I guess.

Of course, all of this rambling is not what I’m thinking about right now. Just typing away, avoiding what I’m thinking and should be typing. That’s me, folks.

Anyway, Lesa, if you are reading this, and if I didn’t thank you before, I just wanted to thank you for the
t-shirt that you sent me. And also I should be able to come up for the BBQ in July. I wonder if you even read this. Well, Barry, pass the word along. I guess it would be easier to send you a email. That would be the smart thing to do.

Anyway, I have merchandise bags coming in tomorrow. Fun! Think I will let Mark unload them for practice. He needs to take his test soon.

Taken from here

Unrelenting
strange and full of contrasts
often egoistic
aggressive
noble
broad horizon
unexpected reactions
spontaneous
unlimited ambition
no flexibility
difficult and uncommon partner
not always liked but often admired
ingenious strategist very jealous and passionate
no compromises.

So what do you think; does this describe me or not. I want to know.

Not a bad Monday, the way Monday’s go. Work is progressing at a nice pace and we will def. be ready for inventory this Saturday. I won some passes to go see the new Sinbad movie on Thursday. Still didn’t get the hard drive from circuit, damn credit from Fry’s is taking forever to get back into my account. But, I did get my checks from WaMu today, so tomorrow, I will def. come home with a new 120GB hard drive. I also got a
t-shirt from Lesa in the mail. Will take some pictures of it later.

For now, I am going to check my email, peruse some websites, then turn the computer off and let Harry Potter take over. I was a skeptic when the books first came out, but then I caved in and check out the first book and was hooked. It really is a good read;
esp. while waiting for Robert Jordan to get off of his ass and finish up the Wheel of Time series.

I might take a break and sign on later. That’s a big maybe though.

Went to Fry’s to return the hard drive; was hoping that they could match the rebate, but they couldn’t. Afterwards, drove around looking for a Circuit City, finally found one in San Mateo. Unfortunately, my Visa got denied, which I expected, but was hoping it would go through anyway. So stopped by In-n-Out to get dinner and headed home.

Still haven’t read Harry Potter yet because I promised Kim and Barbara that I would watch Lilo and Stitch with them. Worried that if I start to read it tonight after the movie, I will be up all night long. So I might not read it until tomorrow night. Guess it’s a good thing that I’m staying off of Livejournal or Blurty right now.

So, in order to keep my mind off of Harry Potter, I have been playing the Bomberman game that I got. Nothing like the old school classics to keep you entertained for hours. It’s kinda of a drag playing with the keyboard, but I’m doing O.K. on all of them so far. Still, I might go ahead and dig out my MS Gamepad and hook that up to use.

So with the hard drive issue out of the way, I’m now trying to decide on which route to go. My computer is still in pretty decent shape for the most part. Here are the specs…

AMD Althon 1.2Ghz
ASUS A7A266 Motherboard
PC2100 DDR 512 RAM
20GB IBM Deskstar hard Drive
120GB 8MB cache Western Digital hard Drive
ATI Raedon 7200 VIVO video card
Samsung SyncMaster 955DF 19″ monitor
Creative SoundBlaster MP3+ sound card
Pioneer 16x slot loading DVD drive
PlexWriter 12/10/32 CD-RW drive
Microsoft USB Intellimouse Explorer
Microsoft Natural Keyboard Elite
HP Deskjet 812c Printer
HP 3400 ScanJet Scanner

Not the most recent system, but it stills holds up. There are only two things wrong with it right now. The first is that the floppy drive doesn’t work for some reason. Since I rarely if ever use floppies, that isn’t that big of a problem. The main problem with the system is the noise that it creates. I would give anything for a
quieter computer. And that leads to my dilemma. Do I want to keep this system and just upgrade it, or do I want to buy a new computer, like a nice and quiet Dell. If I upgrade, the only thing I would upgrade is the video card up to a Raedon 9000 All-In-Wonder so I could watch TV on my computer. The sound card is alright for my needs, so I don’t need to buy a new sound card or speakers. The monitor is big enough for me (and heavy enough.) I would need to by a new mouse an maybe a new keyboard. The mouse is a def. yes; I would get a gyromouse. The keyboard is an iffy; it is long enough to reach the bed, but a wireless one would be better. I rarely use my CD burner, and I don’t need a DVD burner for anything. A new processor would be nice but not necessary. And RAM; well always use more RAM. So let’s see…

AMD AthlonXP 2000 – $56
2 Sticks of PC2100 DDR 512MB RAM – $70 ea.
ATI All In Wonder Radeon 9000 – $145
Ultra Cordless Optical Mouse – $80
Wireless Keyboard – $25
Total – $306-$446 depending if I get the RAM or not

Other option is to just buy a new computer. However, my neck is killing me, so I think I rant more about the computer later…

After some careful thought, the hard drive is going back. It was a hard choice to make, but I think it was the right one….

esp. since Circuit City has the same hard drive for $80 after rebates.

later

Am thinking that I am just going to mainly post stuff here instead of the other two journals. It’s bothersome to make an entry and then have to cut/paste to two other journals. I could use one for my
quizzes/polls and another one just for pictures, I guess. Something to mull over.

Went out with Angie to her cousin’s birthday party. I swear, half if not all of SF is related to Angie somehow. And they are all hot. Anyway, we went to a Karaoke club; I say club instead of bar because there was no alcohol served there. I was more out of tune than usual; I sung A Whole New World, Welcome To The Jungle, and…..I thought I sung another song, but I can’t remember. I wanted to sing Color Me Badd I Wanna Sex You Up, but they didn’t have it. I totally shot my throat singing Guns n’ Roses though. It was good times, except it would have been better if there was alcohol to
loosen everybody up.

So yesterday, before being sucked into Fry’s I decided to just start driving. The Focus isn’t the Metro when it comes to gas, so I won’t be making any
spontaneous trips like I did with that car. So anyway, I drove down Hwy 1 to Half Moon Bay, turned on Hwy 92 back inland, and then onto Hwy 35. It was a great drive,
reminiscence of Hwy 121 & 128 at Berryessa, although not as winding. The drive reminded me why I love the Bay area so much. It’s the diversity of the place and it’s everywhere you look, from the people to the places to even the weather. No matter who or what you are, there is a place somewhere in the bay area just for you.

**sigh** I do have some work that I brought home that I could work on I guess. Inventory is this
upcoming Saturday. I am worried enough about it, but we are almost done labeling stuff. I really should start
planning my vacation. July 1-3 looks good. I would need Tim to come in for me on that Tuesday. Hmmm. I might just have to take the 2 and 3 off. And then take the last week in July off to go see the family for Eric’s birthday. Part of me doesn’t want to take time off, fearing that the warehouse will come crashing down without me. However, after the stress of the last couple of months, I know that I am long overdue for one. And I know that the last week of July will be stressful also. It will probably be a good idea to retreat up to Washington and be surrounded by my family.

Think that I will go through an make sure all the important stuff is backed up. The good thing about Fry’s is that they don’t have a credit card. I’ve been good about not getting any new ones, but yesterday I’m sure that I would have
applied for one and max the shit out of it that day.

Barbara is still sleeping outside. Which means that I can’t watch TV, I can’t get my Harry Potter book, and I can’t install the new hard drive. AAARRGGGHHH!!!!

I MUST HAVE MY PRECIOUSSSSSS…..YYYEEEESSSS, MYYYYY PRRRECCIOOUUUSSSS!!!

So I’m at Fry’s just looking around, pricing stuff that I want to buy. They have tons of flyers for the Harry Potter book. Since I wasn’t allowed to look at the ones at the bookstore, I decided to go over and see if they had any left and read the 1st chapter of it. Well they had it all right, for $9.99
That’s right $9.99
So because of Harry Potter, I spent $200 at Fry’s….
See, has I was going to get in line, I had to pass the Hard Drives, and mysteriously a 120 GB hard drive joined the Harry Potter book. An a Bomberman Game.
Damn you Potter. Damn you to hell
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I am tired.
I am tired of work
I am tired of my coworkers
I am tired of my bosses
I am tired of my car
I am tired of my clothes
I am tired of my hair
I am tired of my web page
I am tired of my journals
I am tired of my computer
I am tired of my paycheck
I am tired of my bills
I am tired of my overdue books
I am tired of the cats
I am tired of my bed
I am tired of my toothpaste
I am tired of my teeth
I am tired of the blemishes and flaws on my face
I am tired of my body and the way I look
I am tired of my books
I am tired of my computer games
I am tired of not having a computer
I am tired of radio stations playing the same songs
I am tired of the economy
I am tired of the employment outlook
I am tired of moving stuff
I am tired of inventory
I am tired of back to school orders
I am tired of being in charge
I am tired of doing laundry
I am tired of cleaning
I am tired of my friends being far away
I am tired of 50 cents, Avril Laraigne, and Good Charlotte
I am tired of Pacifica not having an ice cream shop
I am tired of posting negative entries
I am tired of not posting anything at all
I am tired of thinking that I have nothing to post
I am tired of all the obligations I have
I am tired of worrying about my family
I am tired of worrying about money
I am tired of thinking about my health
I am tired of eating right
I am tired of being afraid of needles
I am tired of not knowing how to swim
I am tired of hiding myself at work
I am tired of hiding the everything inside of me
I am tired of being lonely
I am tired of people telling me that it will get better
I am tired of people telling me that I should move on
I am tired of not being able to move on
I am tired of hating myself for thinking about moving on
I am tired of longing for her
I am tired of missing her
I am tired of my heart aching over her
I am tired of crying myself to sleep over her
I am tired wanting to fix myself for her
I am tired of not knowing how to fix myself for her
I am tired of trying to figure out how everything fell apart
I am tired of trying to figure out why everything fell apart
I am tired of knowing that she is looking elsewhere for love
I am tired of knowing that my love wasn’t good enough for her
I am tired of knowing that my love wasn’t enough for her
I am tired thinking about her every day
I am tired of thinking of impossible plans to win back her love
I am tired of the movies I’ve watched that inspired my impossible plans
I am tired of reading how she wants to be loved when I am here to love her
I am tired of searching for the answers
I am tired of praying for the answers
I am tired of Him not listening to my prayers
I am tired Him not giving a damn about anything
I am tired of no being able to breakthrough to talk to Him
I am tired of never feeling Him by my side
I am tired of never feeling, sensing, or talking to Him at all
I am tired of my body
I am tired of my heart
I am tired of my soul
I am tired of life
I am tired of no being able to do anything about anything
I am tired of not being able to live my life
I am tired of not being able to end my life.
I am tired of the music playing
I am tired of the computer running
I am tired of the light shining in my room
I am tired of….I’m just tired.
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