So much beauty in the world…

Watched American Beauty, officially one of my favorite movies.
I haven’t seen beauty in such a long time. It has been so dark for me. Actually, that’s not true, I do see beauty. But it’s like I am on a train and every once in awhile there is an opening and the sunlight shines through the window of the train. And as quickly has it comes, it is gone again and I am back in darkness. All I see is beauty in quick flashes, not sure of what I’m actually seeing. I sometimes wonder if I will ever see that beauty again.
**sigh** All I need now is to watch Magnolia and just fuck my brain royally.
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