Monthly Archives: September 2000

When there is a dog with so much anger and aggression pented up inside of his that he lashes out and attacks whoever gets close to him, usually that dog is captured and eventually put to death.
What about humans? What happens to humans with so much pented up anger and aggression, that they are ready to lash out at whoever is near them, even if that person is trying to help them. Should they be captured and eventually put to death too.
All day long has I walked past people on the streets, all I could think of was hateful thought and how I just wanted to just go up to some stranger and start beating the hell out of them. Do I deserve to live or am I a potential hazard to society that should be taken care of before something happens to me?
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Current music: Listening to KFOG

working until 6-7
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If I didn’t have stuff to do today, I would seriously consider taking the day off.
But since I’m here at school, I might has well go through with it.
I’m thinking that tommorow or Friday though, I will take off. Probably friday.
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I don’t believe in too many things. And my moral and value system is pretty much fucked up, I admit that. I honestly don’t know what or who I believe in. The one thing that I do know that I believe in is in personal freedom. I believe in the freedom of people to make their own decisions and to say whatever they want and to do what they want. Has long has it doesn’t directly interfere with other people beliefs and freedoms. What they say might be wrong, or stupid, or racists, or whatever. They have a right to say it. They don’t have a right to get up in your face and to spout out at you. There has to be respect between people. If you don’t like what someone is saying, then turn off the radio, put down the paper/book/magazine, turn off the T.V., walk away from the computer screen, or stop reading the journal that offends you.
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What is LiveJournal.com?
LiveJournal.com is a free service that allows you to create and customize your very own “live journal” … an online journal that you can update with short entries many times a day, or with long entries a few times a week…however you’d like to use it. It’s free, it’s fun, it’s easy to use!
Current mood: calm
Current music: listening to other people type in the lab

No I didn’t kill myself. Way too much stuff to do, and who would help Amber out with her new kittens?
**sigh**
So here’s the problem. Live Journal is suppose to be a reflection of my thoughts. I am suppose to have the freedom to write down whatever I want. If I am feeling suicidal, am I allow to write those thoughts down? Oh should I censor them? If I am censoring, then what else should I sensor? Anf if I am censoring, then what’s the point of Live Journal?
Got to move the car. More on this later.
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OK.
Going to take a shower first. If I’m still up for it, I’ll think about suicide, but I’m really tired and will proably just goto sleep.
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I don’t even want to go into it…
The scary thing is that the windows here don’t have screens and they are wide enough for me to jump out of.
Something to think about.
Current mood: suicidal
Current music: Listening to Mike play something that is not Dave Matthews

I forget how hard it is to type when tears get in the way.
Current mood: crying
Current music: Jars Of Clay – Art In Me