Daily Archives: June 22, 2001

Another summer project done. I got all the old pictures from the photo album that I borrowed scanned onto the computer. Now all I have to do is to fix them up a bit. I can do some very minor stuff like straightening and stuff, but I will need Suzanne and a copy of Photoshop for most of the pictures. I wanted to get everything done so that I could give my Dad a CD of pictures that he could take with him when he goes to the East Coast next weekend so he could show my Aunt Jackie. Not sure if it will get done in time.
More Tae-bo shinanegons after work today. No even going to bother to rant about that.
Got my evaluation back. 5’s and one 4.5. I wonder if the raise could take effect in this paycheck. I’ll probably have to wait until the next one.
I don’t know how I could spend so much money. I need to get my reciepts together and look to see where the money went. Poop.
SO what is on the agenda tonight. I am waiting for the Ice cream to soften so that I can make a shake and I’m thinking of watching DVD’s. I still haven’t see “A Few Good Men”. Actually I could watch any of my DVD’s and just watch the commentary or special features.
But then I was thinking of playing Deux Ex since I haven’t played for awhile, and it is a birthday present. I let Kurt borrow Diablo II (which probably wasn’t a good idea since the expansion comes out next week, but oh well.) and I uninstalled Anarchy Online. I wish that Doomie was still on LJ so that I could talk to him about AO. It is a piece of crap right now, and they are still going gold at the end of the month. If, by some miricle of God that they can get all the bugs worked out of it, it still is going to suck. All the stuff that I’ve read about WWII Online, I can see happening to AO.
Then there is Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Repair. I read it before, but I just couldn’t get what all of my friends were getting out of it. I’ve been thinking about rereading it again to see if maybe it would be clearer to me now. It took me several times to get into Robert Cook and the Wheel of Time series. I would always get to around page 100 and then lost interest. But once I was able to get pass page 100, I was hooked.
Hmmm, what to do; what to do.
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God, I wish I would have gotten either a Taichi or Yoga DVD instead of Tae-bo
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I have little to no energy within me.
I think that another wave of depression is trying to set in. I wish that it would wait until after this weekend. I would like to be in a good mood when I goto the parade.
I wish that the St. John’s Wort would work faster, if at all. I’ve never been too convinced that it ever worked the last couple of times that I have taken it. And Welltrubin (if I had insurance) always let me absent minded. I have never forgiven myself for misplacing a CD player at work. And it was cause of the Wellbutrin. What I need are some to pep me up.
What I need is something, someplace, or someone to fill the emptyness that is in my soul.
I want to be warm and covered; I want to stop feeling so cold and exposed.
I want to goto a nude beach and strip and let the sun and the sand warm my body and reenergize my soul.
I want to goto a rave and in that body of people dancing and within that mass I want to throw away my fears and let my body, mind, and soul be seduced and surrounded by the smells, the colors, the shapes, and the sounds of the rave.
What happen to the immortal that I once was? Hmph. I guess in high school, we are all gods and goddesses until we are kicked out of Olympus and fall to Earth.
Is that what I should be searching for; that spark of immortality? It was never the looks, the class one was in, how smart one was. Things like these can help and assist, but it was always about the spirit of immortality; that aura of confindence. With a strong spirit, one can be more beautiful that they really are. You can walk into any social class you want. You can allude an intelligence that you might not have.
**sigh** I am self centered.
I Guess Every Rose Has Its Thorn,
Just Like Every Night Has It’s Dawn,
Just Like Every Cowboy Sings A Sad Sad Song,
Every Rose Has Its Thorns…
God I am in trouble if 80’s Big Hair Rock Ballads are making me cry.
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Here is your analysis:
YOUR IDEAL MATE is gentle and sweet.
ABOUT YOUR WISH: You like changes. Going for a trip is challenging to you.
YOUR ATTITUDES TOWARDS SUCCESS: You don’t care about your success.
YOUR ATTITUDES TOWARDS SOCIETY: You love freedom and don’t want to get tied down.
ABOUT YOUR PERSONALITY: You are too self-centered.
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