If you caught a long-term relationship virus (LTRV) that would kill you if you stayed in a romantic involvement for more than six months, how do you think your partners would differ from those you now like? Do you think you would end up spending more or less energy on sex and romance? In some ways I think it would change things. On the one hand, I feel like I would just withdraw into myself and avoid relationships to stay alive and to prevent my love ones from feeling sad for killing me. Kind of like Angel (Buffy The Vampire Slayer) staying in the shadows and feeding on rat in order to prevent Angelus from appearing. Or was that Lestat from Ann Rice? Anyway, the point is living in suffering so that others don’t suffer. But there is a small part of me that would want to be selfish and just see how much I could love with someone before dying. I could totally see myself doing this with Brent because I wouldn’t have to worry about the depression question. Not sure if I could do this with Teresa or Suzanne. I guess the major issue is that the love would have to be more one-sided; Like I would have to love that person more than the other person loved me. I think in that regards it would be hard to find someone. It would be easier if it could be a FWB situation, but in order to get the virus, you would have to fall in love. I think that is the key. Could you fall madly in love for five months and then stop and be cured? Or is it that you have six months total of love to give and once you give it all up, then you pass away? Viruses, how do they work? Maybe I could do a Hollywood movie ending where I fall in love with someone and we reach new heights of carnal and intimate pleasure. Then one day I disappear with a note explaining the situation and telling them that they were the best I ever had and that I will always love them, to remember the good times, and all that. Hmm, I feel like they already made this movie. Something September or November with Keanu Reeves and Scarlet Johansson? Or that one teen movie with the cancer patients? Too lazy to IMDB the plots right now.
A 40-something rediscovering life in California