I can’t read signs…

So I went to the Golden Gate Faire today.  I expected it to be somewhat small.  I haven’t been to any faires in a while, but unless Northern Faire finally went bankrupt, I expected most guilds/shops/people to be getting ready for that.  Well, I was wrong.  The faire was at Speedway Meadow and it was pretty sizeable.  So I went in and walked around.  Got some funnel cake with apples, and a fairy statue for Amber’s birthday.  Almost bought an outfit for myself.

I went to the fortune teller’s booth to get my cards read.  I told myself that I wouldn’t think about Suzanne, but of course it was the only thing on my mind as I cut the deck

King of Swords/Knight of Coins/The Devil/Nine of Coins/Ten of Cups/Ace of Wands

According to my reader, I should be ready for something new to appear in my life.  I was at a point in my life that I was ready to move on and start anew.  New beginnings and all of that.

So I’m on my way to leave the faire and I see her.


And all I could do was stare at her.

She is still fucking beautiful.

Absolutely stunning.

And here I am now home. my mind and heart all turned upside down.

The cards told me to walk away.

Everyone tells me to let it go and walk away.

But I just can’t.  My heart won’t let me.