Monthly Archives: August 2006

Four hot ladies working at Starbucks, and of course one of them reminds me of Suzanne.  Just the height, I think.  Also surprised to see not one, but two black people inside.  But I’m not really playing Spot The Minority right now.

Didn’t walk as far as the last two days.  My shoulder is pretty sore for some reason.  it’s the bed.  I just can’t go from my super soft, pillow top bed to the hard guest bed.  Well, a few more days and I’ll get back to my wonderfully soiled bed (I think it’s soft, but I have bad handwriting at times). 

Other than the bed softness, I feel pretty good.  I feel refreshed and reenergized.  I feel ready to go back to work…well almost ready.  I am not ready…to let Suzanne go.  If anything I want her back in my life.  I wish I knew how.  Should I just drive up to her house and confess my love to her?  Or should I just stay away and try to move on, even though it seems that I can’t.

I should at least post an ad on craigslist or something.  Or have Josef do it for me.  What could I say in an ad…

32yrs, 6′ tall,SBM average build.  Work at a college. Likes reading, music, going out, or being a homebody.  Looking for some one to complete me.  Don’t know what I’m looking for really, just want someone to help me find it.

Yeah, that’s going to get me lots of replies.  I need to go out more.  But I hate going out alone.  Catch-22?

Do people still pick up on people at bars? I wouldn’t know since I’ve never did that.

I wish I could talk to my ex’s, if only to get their help in coming up with a date ad.  although that could be a potential bad idea.

I wonder about my old friends.  Actually I don’t.  I think that I am…content that most gave up on me.  Not surprised is probably the better word.  I am surprised that Mew and Amber still call me.  I don’t think that it will last much longer though.  I’m still not sure why I did what I did.  TO ease the pain one less thing to hide behind?  One less thing to compare myself too.  I did it so that I would stop using them to make me feel less about myself.  I wonder if that’s why I keep Brent around, someone who is worse off than me?  Well, he’s not anymore considering he has a house now.

If someone can love me then I can love myself.

I wonder if I could really get a house?

Need to find out how much left to pay for my teeth.  Hopefully not too much.

Need to figure out new workout routine.  Focus on abs & pecs

Need to figure out how to work and go to the gym.  Do I want to go in the mornings, or right after work.

9-10am Gym   10-9pm Work

11-9work  9-10pm Gym

Either way, I’m going to be dead tired.

$5304 saved year w/o car

something to think about

**sigh**  I should start walking back home and walking some of these calories off.  Besides, I really need to finish the manual.

GM Department Manual – 9/01/06

Revise old gift manual to bring it up to date with department today.  Maybe 50% done right now.  Need to finish it and let Amber/Irene/Monica proof it.

Buy plant for desk – 9/15/06

Would like a bonsai or a small flower plant.  No Cacti.

Reduce Website – 10/31/06

• New Color Scheme

• Make it W3C complaint

• Add Photo/Moblog Album

• Be able to post pics by phone

• Update more often

• figure out how to trackback

Quit WOW – 9/15/06

I really not doing anything special with this.  It’s not like I socialize or am in a guild.  W/O a guild, I’ll never get high end equipment.  Same with PVP.  I’m just wasting $15/month.  I should quit until the expansion comes out.

Exercise 3-4x week regularly

I need to get on a schedule and stick with it.  In theory.

• Mon Raw 9-11pm
• Tues Eureka/ECW 9-11pm
• Wed Blade 10-11pm
• Friday Smackdown 8-10pm
• Sat Naruto 8:30-9:30pm

Really didn’t I build my computer so that I could record TV?  Anyway It would do me some good to cut out some TV.  I’m really probably too old f/wrestling and cartoons.

New Showerhead

I’ve forgotten how good a water massage could feel.  But I am still curious about the rainforest heads.

New Shoes

For the love of god, just buy some.  Suck it up and go to the sketcher outlet in the mission

Another journal, another to-do list.

It’s funny how many of these journals that I have with to-do lists scrawled all over them.  I don’t think that I have completes a single one of them.  The closest is the to-do list on my phone (that I’ve in fact completed).  And that’s only cause I put some work things on it.

Well, it’s a beautiful day here in Washington.  the sun is peeking out of the clouds and there is a light breeze blowing.  The pedometer says 3.85 miles, but 1/2 of that was walking the dog.  The other 1/2 is inaccurate.  It can’t be more than a mile from my parents house to Starbucks. I should re-measure my steps one day.  However, the pact fact that it gives me more steps makes me feel a little better.

BTW, spot the minority is in effect.  IT has to be at lease 50-75% people w/o one.  Could I really ever live up here?

I really should be at work.  Being off work gives me too much time to think about myself.  I’m forced to look at myself and to examine myself.  I have nothing to loose myself in, like work or the internet (parents STILL have AOL.)  I didn’t get any books to read, although I could always dig out my library that is up here.

1 black person. *ding*

I could watch TV; parents have DishTV so I can catch up on all the channels that I don’t have in S.F.  I can watch those movies that I missed in the theaters and on DVD.  I do have some work that I could and will probably do.

O.K, this really wouldn’t be a journal w/o a to-do list.  Technically, I could do this on my phone and post it to my blog.  I should probably timestamp this….

**sigh** To Do List

No organization.  Just going to put everything down w/ descriptions and dates…

Spot the minority:

Black x2 *ding*

Filipina *ding*

Hot Asian *ding, ding*

old Asian

Black (jungle fever?)

Asian (hot, young?)

The thing with visiting with my parents is that they go to sleep early.  Also, they have DishTV and all the programming is Eastern Time.  SO the combo makes it seem later then it really is.  And w/no DSL, I can’t stay up on the internet.  I could work on the manual, but I think that I am just going to get some sleep.