Monthly Archives: May 2001

No one is going to be catering to your needs today, so get up and do things on your own. You will find that there is little sympathy coming from others, and strong opinions are a dime a dozen. There is a great deal of gossip buzzing around that you may be tempted to join in on. Don’t be an enabler of this sort of behavior. It is only going to alienate you from others in the long run. Keep in mind, that today’s trine between the Sun and the Moon wants you to realize that other people should serve as a mirror and that you can only grow, if you analyze the projection carefully
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Fuck everybody….
Fuck Centennial Villiage
Fuck SFSU Bookstore
Fuck SF State
Fuck my roommates
Fuck my friends
Fuck my family
Fuck my girlfriend….
…scratch that, can’t fuck her; we’re not married
Fuck God
Fuck everybody and fuck everything
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So last night, Eugene (the assistant to the manager of my apt) comes over and drops off an eviction notice. This BTW is the second time that I’ve gotten an eviction notice during midterms/finals; Their timing is impeccable. They are saying that I haven’t paid rent since March. At first, I was freaking out; I have papers and finals to study for, and then they hand my a notice to pay $1500 or leave in three days. But then I calmed down, and took 2-3 shots of Jack Daniels from the bottle. SO I dug through all of my stuff and found some the paperwork that proves that I had pay my rent. **phew** God, I wish that I would have stayed at Park Merced. So now I am stuck here at least through the summer, cause it is too late for me to look for a new apartment. **sigh** just crazy shit happening. O. K. Justin is out the shower; let me clean myself up so that I can get this taken care of.
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Although you generally like to keep both feet on the ground and proceed in a very stable, organized manner, there is a strong force encouraging you to spread your wings. This impulse has something to do with today’s Venus-Neptune sextile, which encourages your creative and artistic side. Just go ahead and incorporate more elements of fantasy into your day, and practice the art of dreaming. Liberate yourself from reality for a while and feel the tremendous weight being lifted from your shoulders. This kind of attitude will help bring a greater sense of balance to your life. Let your imagination run wild.
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No classes today; Advising Day on Campus…
Woke up at 9am after getting to bed at around 3-4am. Typed up another page to my paper and printed it out. I know that I’ll get an F on it, but I wanted to show her that I did read and that I kinda understand what’s going on so at least she thinks that I’m trying. **sigh**
So I hiked up to the Hist Dept. and found out that they weren’t doing advising until the afternoon. So I took the school shuttle to BART and went to the city to wait for Jason. I hung around the San Francisco Shopping Center; I can’t remember the name of it, but it’s on 5th and Market and it’s where Nordstroms is at.
So I hung out there for awhile, looking at all the designer stuff and just feeling really left out and out of my league. Usually I’m not like this, I can walk around like I’m king of the world. But today I just felt ghetto; that’s the only word that describes it.
Jason finally called and after playing phone tag we hooked up at the Metreon. It was Jason’s first time there and we had lunch at the Buckhorn. It was good eatings. Afterwards, we walked around and looked at all the cool Sony stuff. O. K. he looked, I mostly drooled over stuff. Afterwards we hopped on BART and I went with him most of the way to Pittsburg before I got off at Concord and headed back to the city.
I came back just in time to get an advising appointment. It looks like that I am on the way to graduating, granting that I pass my classes this semester. I won’t be able to get my minor in Asian Studies though unless I stay an extra semester….
**side note; just looking around the room and noticing that Justin has put up his posters. GoodFellas, Scar face, Swingers; and Raging Bull….or is it Taxi Driver. The one where he says, “You talkin’ to me?”. I think it’s Taxi Driver. Anyways**
So now I am home waiting for my 6pm Beijing class. **sigh** I just feel so empty right now. I feel another Depression attack coming on. If I can just hold out for two weeks and get my school shit done…..
Poop….
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On a happier note, I am still alive in my UltraCorps game. I won’t last long cause my armies are still weak and the planets that I own don’t produce enough materials for me to expand my army. Also there are two good size empires nearby that are attacking another guy. They are all stronger than I am. I am hoping that they will conside me too weak to waste their time on and ask for a tribute. We’ll see
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well, after a couple of hours at the computer lab, my paper has gotten no where. I wonder if I can survive without turning it it. Because it is just not going anywhere. It’s not like I didn’t read the stuff, I did. I just don’t understand it enough to make a 5 page paper out of it. It’s kinda of the same thing with my 10 pager due next week. **sigh** Well, I don’t feel that tired, although I know if I go home now I will crash. But there is no point in me staying here, either. I think I am going to throw in the towel and quit this. If nothing else, I can take another European class for fall semseter. That is if I don’t ge tkicked out.
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Look at me
I am the dark blob on the right in the second row from the bottom
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I know, I know I should be working on my paper. But I had to play one game of Six Degrees of LiveJournal. From Sita to Serraph in 8 degrees.
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Take some of that knowledge, you have picked up and processed over the past few weeks, and begin to spread it out to others. It is time to put your communication skills to work. You will find that your emotions are strongly tied to your actions today, and that things will take on a much lighter tone than they have the past couple of days. Take deep breaths and release your pent up tension, because the conjunction between Moon and Mars might indicate a certain nervousness that could lead to poor judgement.
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