I am Joe’s lack of enthusiasm

Was working on my web site and I mess up one little thing. I thought that I could fix it, but I ended up deleting the whole thing. Poop. Tried starting over, but to no avail. Back to the drawing board this weekend, I guess.
Tomorrow is when I get everything done. I need to go grocery shopping, I need to clean the inside of my car, I need to clean my room, I need to drive up to Vacaville to cash my checks, and I need to do laundry. Of course I am not going to get all of it done in one night. But that’s what the weekend is for.
Mike leaves for San Diego on Sunday, so I will have the house for myself for the next two weeks. If it wasn’t so cold here, I would just hang out naked every night. I’ve only done it once actually, when I moved into the Village and I had the place all to myself for the first week or so.
The big thing is getting the motivation to go to the gym by myself. Hopefully, I will be able to do it by myself. We’ll see, I guess. The Poker game is also a biggie, just cause I am going to let the guys smoke if they want. Hopefully, the smoke smell won’t be too bad..
Brother still hasn’t contacted me. I need to get his present soon.
Part of me says that I should be doing more with myself and my life. But another voice is telling me to just enjoy the nothingness; just float and fade away.
I am def. floating in a sea of nothingness….
Current mood: cold
Current music: Lauryn Hill – Lost Ones