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Is Carmen Santiago their band manager?  I mean she’s never around…

I should be sad that I’m leaving Indonesia and my brother and his new family. But all I have is hate and anger for my mom, hate and anger for myself for being angry at her, and just thoughts of cutting my wrists and letting the pain flow from my body. None of my training is helping me. Why am I such a bad son? Why can’t I help and take care of someone that doesn’t want to take care of themselves. Why can’t I find the answers, or am I just blind to the answers, or refusing the answers. Why isn’t my death the solution. 

Kiss Freely; Do You Want To Do Freedom; Kiss Freely

Seattle is looking nice this morning has the sun starts to rise. The light blue gradient of the sky; the coral pinks highlighting the wispy clouds in the sky; the darkened skyline with its occasional twinkling lights. Could take a picture, but better just enjoying it. 

O.K. spammer, you’re going to try to scam me and can’t even put an apple logo on it or make it remotely Apple-like. This is just lazy and you should feel bad about your shoddy work. Def. not up to ap-ple standards. I hope the ghost of Steve Jobs haunts you for this.

Trying to adult an actually get some sleep for a change. Also, reinstalling media back on to my new 1TB SSD drive. Seems faster.  Still it’ll take awhile for 400+GB of files to transfer, and I don’t want to mess it up, so here I am. 

Think I’m going deaf from using my Beats headphones to loud. Didn’t think that I had the volume too loud, but I am worried. 

Now if only I could adult and clean my room. I’m not even depressed (that depressed anyway) and I still can’t keep it clean. I should be cleaning it now, but I should be doing alot of things that I’m not. 

Was going to watch some anime, but I think I’m going to actually try to goto sleep.  An extra gabapentin and some lullaby music and hopefully that’ll knock me out.