Daily Archives: July 21, 2004

Today def. did not start out well. Driving to work, I had to tell myself several times to pay attention to the road, and to watch where I was driving at. I was totally non focus and my mind was all over the place. Work wasn’t much better, with Tim giving me “that look” and the UPS driver basicly telling me that I looked like that I was cracked out.
But I’m feeling much better now…
Anyway, think I need to assure Tim that I’m not smoking crack (or any drugs) or that I’m going to kill myself (I’m not).
**update** Am I convincing Tim, or and I convincing myself?

Went to the store on the way home from my session, and interacted with the cashier has she rung up the alcohol that I bought.
I locked myself up in my room and took a nap (I forgot to include that in my daily activity list), woke up and watched some T.V., played some computer games, read my books, surfed the web, drunk my bottle of Jack Daniels, and cried.
Maybe tomorrow I get a chance to go on that walk to the beach. Or clean myself and my room. **sigh** And I still have homework to do. Do I have to goto a movie or can I just rent a DVD from Blockbuster?
Anyway, me, my JD tainted breath, and my tears are all going to goto bed now. Tomorrow starts year three of my sixteen year sentance.