Daily Archives: July 14, 2004

I remember my old roommate, Mike, telling all about hot milk and how it helps you goto sleep; like the scientific reason and stuff.
Mark had the suggestion of jacking off twice; peel one out as quickly as you can, and then immediately go at it again. Then when you’ve cleaned up and done, you should fall right asleep.
And then someone else suggested watching FOX news…
April used to fall asleep watching a DVD; The Hunt For Red October I think.
The Psychiatrist did offer to prescribe me some sleeping pills. I wonder if I should have taken her up on the offer?

Gawd, tomorrow is going to be horrible for me, with the lack of sleep I will be getting.
Thought of the moment (inspired by a couple of journals and a web comic that I’m reading) is “What is keeping me in SF/Bay Area?” It’s a question that’s been asked of me and one that I have asked myself a number of times. I think right now, the ghost of Suzanne is the main reason that I am here; the dream/hope/delusion that something will happen between us. Excluding that, I’m not sure that I have a good reason for staying. I mean the weather’s nice here and S.F. is a wonderful city. But there are other cities out there in the world. All I’m doing here is hiding, and I could do that in any other city just as well, even better probably. I mean, if I moved, I would know absolutely no one. And isn’t that what I want? Isn’t it?