Monthly Archives: September 2002

Man, what a long ass Friday. This day just seem to go on forever; and I def. have the stink on me to prove it.
Anyway, home now for the weekend. Was planning on going to the library today, but will put it off until tomorrow. It will give me one last chance to read either the Elvis or Madonna biography.
Against my better judgment, I downloaded Windows Media Player 9. In some ways it seems better, but then other way it seems worse. Still need to play with it before making a final decision on it.
O.K. I need to pee and take a shower. Then head to the kitchen and scrounge up something to eat; I will NOT have cereal for dinner again.
Current mood: stinky
Current music: U2 – In God’s Country

Spent the last 30min browsing other journals. Was especially caught up in the journals with interest in SF State. How did they find out about Live Journal? Last year, whenever I used a computer, whether it was in a lab or one of the ones in the bookstore, when I was done I would leave it on a random Live Journal. Did the next person come by and start reading the journal, and then signed up for their own journal. Probably not, but I can hallucinate, can’t I?
Current mood: peaceful
Current music: Dave Matthews Band – Proudest Monkey (Live)

So the solution that Amber P. and I came up with was that we need to stop looking outside and start looking inside. That basically means that we need to do a whole Bridget Jones/Janet from Singles thing and just work on discovering and being ourselves. The only pre-req was that we had to have somebody before New Years, cause being alone and unwanted on New Years sucks. This plan applied more to her than myself, but I can apply it to myself. Well, except the New Years part; it’s still too early in the planner to make a final decision, but right now, I’m thinking a jaunt up to Susanville to stay with Lesa and Kurt might be fun. I could hang out with Lesa and Kurt, play with Alyssa, and have Lesa’s mom feed me. But like I said, still too early to make any def. plans.
Think that I should have gone shopping this weekend for Xmas gifts at JCPennys. They had red tag sales on top of clearance sells. Oh well. Still, I should shop early. Of course, this would be a perfect opportunity to slip in a PS2 for myself. Tsk, Tsk…..I am so tricky sometimes….
So back to the “looking inside” thing. We really didn’t develop a roadmap or plan on how to do this. So, I guess I will just do what I always do, and just wander aimlessly with no goal in site…
Current mood: contemplative
Current music: The Notorious B.I.G. – The World Is Filled

In other news, still resisting the urge to spend money that I don’t have on a PlayStation 2. It is so pitiful, that it is funny. And it’s not like I don’t have games that I could still play. I mean, I still need to finish GTA3. And I never did finish Star Craft. And don’t forget Civ III.
What else? Nothing else really to report. Think that I am going to give up on the biographies also. Just can’t get into them right now. Will probably head to the library this weekend to checkout another mountain load of books. Nothing in particular, I basically just walk around the entire library, picking out books by title and covers. Yes, I judge books by their covers; I should be ashamed of myself.
Suzanne’s gift still hasn’t shipped yet. Grrrrrrr! Well, it does say the 10th. It had better ship then.
Oh yeah, any sugar-momma’s out there. In case you are reading this, BUY ME SOMETHING OFF OF MY AMAZON WISH LIST. O.K. So I don’t want a sugar momma to buy me anything. Maybe a milkshake, but that’s all.
Current mood: bored
Current music: George Michael, Elton John – Don’t Let The Sun Go Down On Me

Have decided to give up on reading The Bible for right now. Obviously, I am getting the wrong message from it, cause according to The Bible, women are the root of all evil, it is O.K. to give up your virgin daughters to a mob and God endorses the mass killing of his own creation among other things. Think after a week or so, I will head to Borders and start with a children’s bible.
While I am in disagreement with God over mass killing, I think that it should be his decision, and not our president. I’m sorry, I will be so pissed if Bush leads us into a war against Iraq. For what, so that he can finish what his dad started 10 years ago? **sigh** If Bush only spent this much energy on domestic issues, like the economy.
Oy F’ing Vey is all I can say.
Current mood: frustrated
Current music: CoCo Lee, Yo Yo Ma – A Love Before Time (English)

Took off a little early from work to do laundry, so now I have clean clothes to last me until payday.
Have enough food to last me to payday.
now just need to survive until payday and everything will be O.K.
Talked to Daniel and Reina. They are waiting to see if they are going to move out or not. Apparently, once the bonus bucks are gone, Park Merced doesn’t give you any more. I will def. be moving then in May when our lease is up
Talked to mom today….she really wants me to move back home.
So I am tired, but I need to take a shower and put clothes away.
Will come back and rant later….
Current mood: tired
Current music: Bjork – HyperBallad

Say you’ll share with me one love, one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you
Share each day with me, each night, each morning
Current mood:
Current music: Phanton Of The Opera – All I Ask Of You

**sigh** Lesa, Lesa…..I am so thankful that you are around to listen to my rantings and thoughts; to listen to my fears and desires. O.K. so I’m glad that you have never charged me all of these years for our therapy sessions. You are such a good friend.
Current mood: melancholy
Current music: The Notorious B.I.G., 112 – Sky’s The Limit

I might be poor.
I might have been dumped by my girlfriend.
I might be working in a dead end job.
I might have bills to pay up the ass.
I might not have a PlayStation 2.
But I do have one of these


Oh yeah, I am a official col-age grad-u-ate.
BOO_YAA!!!!
Current mood: awake
Current music: Moby – Run On

Just finish talking to my brother, giving him some computer advice.
I wish that I could afford to get the family a new computer. In a way they don’t need it, but then they do. I could get them one of those cheap Linux boxes that they sell at Wal-Mart and then put WinXP on it. Wonder if I could build one for cheaper. Wonder if I could build one at all. I think I can, but then I’m afraid that I would fuck it up badly somehow. Well, something to think about for Xmas anyway.
Gawd, it is so cold today. And the last two days before this, the weather was so hot. It’s crazy, I tell you. I guess I should get ready for an earthquake or something.
Quote of the night….
“Those Fucking Christians have it easy. They don’t have to starve themselves for a week or do any of the stuff I have to do”
Badly misquoted, but that was the gist of the quote from Mike. I think I am going to go with him to his temple sometime this month. Wonder what my parents would think if I became a Jew? Wonder what would think? Would that be good enough for her? Probably not. I would still be going to hell since I don’t accept Jesus has the Messiah. **sigh**
Back to reading the bible…And still resisting the urge to get a PS2. Even though payments would be low….grrrrrrrr
Current mood: cold
Current music: R. Kelly, Foxy Brown – Dollar Bill