Monthly Archives: May 2001

PMS here I come….
What a most unproductive day? And it wasn’t like I wasn’t trying to be productive. I’ve been trying to get shit done, to no avail.
Got my new check card today. The good thing is that I can use the ATM and go shopping. The bad thing is that it still expires in a month. Are they going to issue me a new one, or are they kicking me out of the credit union. I’ll have to call tomorrow.
Also got my Financial Aide statement; **sigh** like I need to see how much money I’ve spent so far. I just better forget about a new car and hope the Metro can run for another 10 years.
And then fucking Justin….if you know that no one is in the house, then lock the fucking door. The same when you come in at 1-2am; fuck, it’s not like we are in the fucking country or something. How hard id it to lock the fucking door.
**sigh** I am def. on the rag. Damn, life would be so much easier if I would have succeeded an killed myself years ago. I wouldn’t feel so worthless and confused. I wouldn’t feel anything at all. Hah!
Hmmm, less than a month of school left. I wonder if I will slide into depression like I did a couple of semesters ago. I just sat at home and played EverCrack and other games all day long. That would make me feel so much better, if I could just run away from everything and play EverCrack for a week straight or something.
O. K. enough with the bitch session. I’m just going to plod along and if I get the shit done, then so be it. If not, oh well. If I get to stay in school, so be it; if I get kicked out, oh well.
Hmmm, maybe I’ve found my churchafter all
Poop!
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I really should have started on this paper earlier. I am partly being a poop head for waiting so long to get serious on it. But I still feel that I don’t have enough info to do a 10 page paper. Too bad I can’t use the big paper that I did for my history writing class. unfortunately, it was for the Korean War and that is out of the time line. **sigh**
Well, I have decided to do it on Advertising during the 1920’s; exciting isn’t it. I was reading over articles trying to figure out which ones I was going to use. But the site has gone down for some reason. Lucky me.
I guess it’s a good thing that Suzanne is going away to San Diego for her friends wedding. That will give me a weekend to work on this paper….Actually it won’t, I forgot that this paper is due on the last day of class.
The lesson learned here is that I need to manage my time better. I should have dropped out of school a long time ago. Well, I am very short on time now. I took today off, but I can’t take too many days off from work cause I need to make enough money for rent next month. **sigh** I wonder if I would have been in better shape….**sigh** Regardless, I’m in the predicament now.
There are other things going on, but I probably shouldn’t talk about them here. Then what is the point of this thing.
O.K. I need to go back to school work. Maybe I should take a break from this and work on reading my Reformation book so I can start on that paper.
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Put aside the frivolity for a day and try to be a bit more serious. This is an important time to prepare for the future. Make sure you don’t take another step forward before you know you are on solid ground. This is an important time for you to establish your goals on a piece of paper. Writing them down will help you realize them in your life. Think about the long-term harvest. Security and grounding are key themes of the day. The trine between Moon and Saturn will help you stay disciplined.
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Just got up from taking a little nap….**yawn** I’ll have to hit the books soon.
Classes were so boring today. spent all of U.S. History getting ready for my debate/lecture in my reformation class. Found out that I need to turn in notes for my Internet paper or I will get no credit. Poop!!! Tomorrow I have the day off and I going to spent the whole day on this paper. The other thing was the fat guy got up to adjust himself in class. Talk about “crack kills”
The Reformation lecture when pretty good. We weren’t as long winded as the group before us with the graduate student. But we got all to points across and I think we will get a good grade. But I was so unfocused in class; I couldn’t even take notes. All I could do is think about my new computer and how I wanted it.
My old computer is having a crashing party. It has been freezing and BSOD all day long. I have no idea what’s wrong with it. I think something might be loose inside. It’s driving me crazy though.
I separated my software into the stuff that I’m keeping and the stuff I giving to Eric. I’m keeping:
Who Wants To Be A Millionaire
NHL 2000
Deus Ex
Civilization II Gold
Alpha Centauri
Sheep
Bleem!
Bust A Move 2
StarCraft & Brood War
Wetrix
Half-Life
Fallout & Fallout 2
Diablo II
The Sims
X-Wing Collection
Eirc is getting a whole bunch of different things. All of it is older stuff, but good stuff, like Warcraft 1 & 2 and Freespace. I was going to give him Bleem!, but since I am also sending him my Playstation, he doesn’t need it.
I cooked curry for dinner; it thickened. Whoohoo!!! It was good. It’s so fulfilling. Ok. Get some Ice Cream and then hit the books.
I wonder if Buffy is new tonight.
I also need to call to see if the girlfriend is back from S. F.
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You know the one that I’m talking about. When you are in class and you are suppose to match up with people. It you, the ugly kid, and another kid. That other kid realizes that he might be matched up with you. So he franticly starts looking around for someone else, but all the other kids are taken. And then he turns and gives you that look, “you know, maybe this won’t be that bad.” or “damn, this blows”. So then he braces himself and starts to walk towards you, but out of the blue, someone else comes along and he is saved from being your partner. And you, has the ugly kid, are left alone on the side of the room, without a partner.
I eventually got paired up with one of the helpers, which I don’t mind. If they don’t like me, at least they don’t show it. And they can actually teach me what the hell is going on. ANd they are not afraid to beat down when necessary. We were suppose to be doing this one move and I had a brain fart and went into another move. Well, he was surprised, but two seconds later I was slamming my face on the ground. Heh! Best move of the day in my book. ANyway, I guess this is the start of our final in Aikido; who knew? Anyway, it looks like he is being really forgiving and for the written part, it is a take home. So maybe I can manage a good grade after all.
I was suppose to do Tae-Bo today, and I might do it later today. But for right now, I am going to take a shower. Then I might mess with Justin’s laptop a bit to see if I can fix it. But I need to get ready for the debate/report thing for my Reformation class later today.
Suzanneis suppose to be coming to S. F. today with Joeand Debbie.I’ll be in class until 3-4. Poop, cause it is a really beautiful day. Speaking of poop, I smell, so off to the showers.
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Difficult situations may arise, in which you feel as if you are doomed if you do, and doomed if you don’t. Finding a working solution to the problem is next to impossible, due to the egos and sharp personalities of the people who are involved. Even if everything looks workable on paper, this is no guarantee that things will work out in real life. The best you can do is be honest and practical, and make it a point not to choose sides or become biased in any way. Today’s Moon-Uranus opposition will make you feel a bit hyper and nervous, so try to only focus on the most important things.
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