I really need to do something about my weight. Looking for that one thing, person, or event that will get me into the gym. I am a size 38/XLarge no matter how much I want to deny it. I really need to accept it or start loosing the weight. Expect I have no motivation. I blame the pills; depression is going away, but I’m left with nothing inside of me. Trying to come with grips that the only way for me to live is to live an empty life.