As I lay here waiting to go to sleep, I wonder why am I going back to SF. What has the city given to me, esp. in the last year…besides beautiful views. I feel so much stronger and healed being here, even though I still worry about the future. And although I’m not ready to move back home with my parents, Portland becomes more and more attractive as a happy medium for a lot of my problem and I wonder more what is keeping me in SF.