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Trying to quiet my thoughts and soul with some Jasmine tea at the Ugly Mug. It is relaxing watching the tea to seep in the steamy water. Not enough though.

Thoughts on going back to Prozac highlight the other negative thoughts swirling in my head. Being zombified on Prozac would make a lot of things easier. Like the fact that I don’t get to the Univ. Dist. early enough to really relax and enjoy my drink before work.

Is my life like this Leaning Tower of Pisa, always looking like it’s going to come crashing down but somehow holding steady? Or is the lesson that I am a broken toy on a shelf in the back collecting dust.

And thoughts like these are why I am no where near quietness in my mind.

Why do I have control of this body and life. Because I have no idea what I’m doing with it. At least plans to goto the Bay Area are starting to form.

I need to get back in to a yoga or meditation class. Can’t keep them in check sometimes. Also need to take a sleep class to learn how to sleep without my phone in the bed. It’s killing me sleep wise.

I feel like I’ve forgotten what the touch of another person feels like. It’s there in the corner of my mind, but I can’t actually grab it and remember it. Frustrating this is what must drive the thirsty guys on Whisper.

Sigh. The pure caffeine from a cappuccino is not kicking in. A troubling sign to a long day.

Testing blogs client.

Testing the new Microsoft keyboard. It’s interesting to use. 

I wish I could be one of the beautiful people sometimes. 

Interpreted that as you want to. 

Should be outside enjoy the sun & weather. Instead i’m n bed being mopey and feeling sorry for myself. Why cant i change myself.