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New journal is in bag and we are having some issues, so a rare blog on the website.

Grey day in Seattle is actually helping my mood somewhat. It’s better than the smoky haze of the last few days as the ash from The Rockies floating in the air. Even with the rain, it’s somewhat humid and draining, but not as much. Seems like it will be a quiet day today at least, which will give me time to assess the damage from the high schoolers and get ready for the college kids. With a football game tomorrow, we’ll see how busy it gets downstairs.

Diabetes still working its magic on me, down to 237, peeing every hour, and still dehydrated. Have to survive until the end of the month for doctor appointment and prescription. Hope I don’t gain back the weight once I’m back on medication. Still I don’t feel/look any different with the 15 pound weight loss. Maybe if I get into the 220’s I’ll see something.

Nothing to exciting to talk about. Mainly due to lack of sleep. Although it’s getting better, still not enough with the getting up to pee…Something is in the air, no sure what though. Just keep my ears and eyes open, I guess

New journal is in bag and we are having some issues, so a rare blog on the website.

Grey day in Seattle is actually helping my mood somewhat. It’s better than the smoky haze of the last few days as the ash from The Rockies floating in the air. Even with the rain, it’s somewhat humid and draining, but not as much. Seems like it will be a quiet day today at least, which will give me time to assess the damage from the high schoolers and get ready for the college kids. With a football game tomorrow, we’ll see how busy it gets downstairs.

Diabetes still working its magic on me, down to 237, peeing every hour, and still dehydrated. Have to survive until the end of the month for doctor appointment and prescription. Hope I don’t gain back the weight once I’m back on medication. Still I don’t feel/look any different with the 15 pound weight loss. Maybe if I get into the 220’s I’ll see something.

Nothing to exciting to talk about. Mainly due to lack of sleep. Although it’s getting better, still not enough with the getting up to pee…Something is in the air, no sure what though. Just keep my ears and eyes open, I guess

I wonder what Suzanne would feel about my coloring & coloring books if we were still together. Would she think it's cute, but nothing like the stuff she does? (What my depressive mind thinks the answer would be).

Out at Scenic Beach park an I am not feeling it. The sounds of nature are not helping me to relax or get any clarity. Will go to the beach and get a pic and them head back home. 

Was suppose to go see Amber in Bellingham, but could not get out of bed in time this morning. Am I dreading seeing her an getting sucked into her depression?  Possibly. Probably more on what’s going on with my life than anything else. Was eventually able to get up, shower, and sneak out the house to get breakfast at Kelly’s. Going to do some aimless driving around the Key Peninsula in hopes that I can get my mood and energy up enoug to clean when I get home. “Would stabbing my self in the heart help end the pain?  Probably not, but I won’t know until I try…” is what I’m thinking in my mind, but won’t actually do. It’s just how I’m feeling now. And with no insurance, I’ll have to figure out a way to therapy myself until I can afford professional help. Guess I’ll be visiting the DBSA group more even though it doesn’t really help.

This really should have been in my journal…

Regardless of price, White was probably not the best choice in color for a laptop. But would pink have been any better?  I wonder if I can laminate it?

Tired, scarred, worn down, scruffy. But still standing.