Surgery in a few hours. A long night of deep sleep, trying to sleep on my back, and keeping the depressive negative thoughts at bay. Watching the sun come up; wondering if I should have went to the beach and watched the sunset.
The thoughts are in full Hollywood mode in my head.
If nothing else, this has forced me to end this failed project of mine to be “self sufficient” and pull the alarm to get help. Hoping after this I’ll be able to see clearly with my eyes and my mind.
