The Book of Questions – Question #48

Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as your dinner guest? As your close friend? As your lover?

(This has a follow up question, but I think ill do those either when I finish all 217 or if a number repeats on the random generator)

So for a dinner guest, I think it would be great to have a big family dinner/reunion with both sides of the family. I’ve always felt that our family has been the black sheep of the family trees just because we are so far away from the main families. My dad’s family is mainly on the east coast and my moms family is in Korea mostly. My mom is estranged from her sister, so I don’t even know where to begin to try to reconnect with them. I think there is a cousin in Utah or Colorado, but not sure. My dad still talks to his family, but it’s been years since we’ve seen them and I’m always manage to avoid flying out there to see them (we’ll save the reasons for that for another post). But I have been somewhat jealous of my friends who’s family is close by and they can get together with them. It would be interesting/challenging to organize/host something like this esp with the language/culture difference but it would be a great experience.

Who would I want as a close friend, who isn’t right now? I’m going to put down Dan & Jen Rama for this. Although putting down myself is also playing in the back of my mind, I think I’ll save that for another post. Dan and Jen were my close friends when I lived in San Leandro. They are married and have one child that is/should be 18 if I remember correctly. Like all things in my life, I’ve let distance and my depression push them away. Within the last year, I’ve Facebook connected with Jen’s youngest sister and her dad. But Dan & Jen aren’t Facebook people and I haven’t taken the next step in reaching out to them. There is still plenty of fear in me and the chains of my depression are thick and still tied to me. But Dan’s birthday is coming up and I do like to plan around events, so maybe soon I’ll have the courage to reach out.

And now a lover. Well technically I have two FWBs, but does that count as a lover? I guess it depends on the feels involved. I do/did have the feels for one of them, but it’s not to be. So of course, I go back to Suzanne, because I’m a hopeless romantic who can’t let go. The Taurus/Venus in me I suppose, but the truth is after all these years (an it has been years now), I still think about her every day. And even though there is practically no chance of us ever getting back together, I still keep that small ember of hope smoldering, just in case to opportunity occurs so I can pull it out and try to fan in into a flame of passion and love again.

Let’s go imaginary and think celebrity/superstar that I would like be my lover. It used to be Paula Abdul. I still wouldn’t kick her out of bed, but the crush from high school has finally lessened over time. Let’s go with…Lucy Liu. It’s not the correct choice, since I think the question is more about sex. But even a porn star like Asia Carrea, I imagine I would want more than just sex. Who do I want just sexually. Maybe hot homeless Asian man. I don’t know him or anything (like I know anything about the other two I listed), but I would gladly disappoint him over and over again in bed.