Monthly Archives: December 2003

Ow

Spent the last hour in bed waiting for my body to stop hurting.
It still hurts.
Also have the start of a sore throat going on.
Think I am getting sick. We’ll see how I feel in the morning.

You know you’ve had a rough day…

When Wham!’s Last Christmas brings you to tears…

Yes, it’s been that kind of day. And I don’t think that it is going to get any better.

For your viewing pleasure, the lyrics…

Chorus:
Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I’ll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance
But you still catch my eye
Tell me baby
Do you recognize me?
Well
It’s been a year
It doesn’t surprise me

Happy Christmas..

I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying “I love you”
I meant it
Now I know what a fool I’ve been
But if you kissed me now
I know you’d fool me again

Chorus

A crowded room
Friends with tired eyes
I’m hiding from you
And your soul of ice
My god I thought you were
Someone to rely on
Me?
I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore me apart
Now I’ve found a real love you’ll never fool me again

Chorus x2

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover buy you tore him apart
Maybe next year I’ll give it to someone
I’ll give it to someone special.

AT&T – 5; Joe – 0

I waited on the phone for 140 minutes (that’s over 2 hours) in an attempt to talk to someone at AT&T about my web order. However, due to overwhelming response to their web promotion, I was unable to get through. Going to try again in a couple of minutes and if that doesn’t work, I guess I will wake up at 7am tomorrow and try them. I will get my cell phone even if it kills me.

Three Pictures – Me, Myself, and I

Taken from Mariah’s Journal


Post three pictures of yourself:

One of what you THINK you look most like.
One of what you THINK others see when they look at you.
One of what you WISH you looked like when others looked at you.

What I think I look most like.
What I think I look most like – A nice looking guy, somewhat quiet looking, with an air of sadness around him.

What I think others see when they look at me.
What I think others see when they look at me – A silly, heavy looking, mentally challenged guy. This is how bad my self image is sometimes: I honestly think that I am some misfigured handicapped person, but no one will tell me the truth.

What I wished I looked like when others looked at me.
What I wished I looked like when others looked at me – Handsome, successful, confident, nice dresser. Actually the whole Tygre Boys series was in a way the way I wish I could look to the world…basically a member of a boy band. No, that’s not it. At one point I did have a dream/vision of what I wanted the world to see when they saw me. But it’s gone now, and I am having a hard enough time trying to figure out what I want to see in myself.

Friday Five for November 28, 2003

Just a little late…
1. Do you like to shop? Why or why not? I guess I still like to shop, but not as much has I used to. Years ago, I liked nothing better than to go and hit the mall. It didn’t matter what store I went to; department, clothing, music, electronics, computers, sports, furniture, etc. I would love to go look at things, try things on, and test things out. However, in the last couple of year, I have curbed in my shopping habits, to the point where it is really hard for me to shop for stuff. It’s a good thing in that I’m not the impulsive shopper charging things on my credit cards. However, I get to the point of making myself sick with anxiety sometimes trying to decide if I should by something or not.

2. What was the last thing you purchased? Food wise, it would be the lunch at Jack in the Box that I had (grilled chicken sandwich, .99 chicken sandwich, fried, and med. carmel shake.) Computer wise, it would be the 128 stick of RAM from Crucial that I got for the old Gateway computer at my parent’s house. Honestly can’t remember the last time that I purchased clothes for myself. Oh yeah, I also got three magazines for the flight home from Washington (PC World, PC Magazine, and Computer Power User.

3. Do you prefer shopping online or at an actual store? Why? It depends on what I am buying. Shopping online usually has the better deals, and I can quickly price compare between sites. However, it’s also nice to be able to go to a store and see/feel what you want to buy. And then there is the atmosphere of the store, like shopping at Walmart late at night. Nothing beats that.

4. Did you get an allowance as a child? How much was it? I did get an allowance has a child, but I don’t remember how much it was. $5 dollars maybe? And then there was the Report card bonuses. I want to say that it was $5 for A’s and $1 for B’s

5. What was the last thing you regret purchasing? The magazines that I got at the airport. I had so many things to read, the magazine articles weren’t that good, and I could have gone to the library or Borders to read them for free.

Wasting away…

Taking a break at work to post that nothing is going on in my life. Well, I’m sure there is something going on, but nothing I feel or want to report at this time.

Skipping out of the faculty party to work late was still a good idea though. Slowly getting caught up and making room on the shelves for all the clothes we have. I think that I can start to see some light at the end of this tunnel with this thing going on at work.

Still waiting for AT&T to email me back about the phone situation. If I don’t hear
anything by tomorrow, I know what I have to do.

Am resisting the urge to watch The Simple Life tonight on FOX. While I am mildly interested in the concept, I am totally sick of the Paris Hilton coverage. I think I got my fill watching her on VH1, MTV, and E! while on vacation. She doesn’t do anything for me at all, really.

O.K. enough of a non-update on my non-exciting life.

Maybe I should have stayed in Washington…

I am not happy about the mess that is here at work. In my delusional state, I somehow thought that everything would be fixed when I got back.
“Foolish Rabbit, Trix is for kids….”
I’ve also just about broke all of my resolutions that I made while I was up in Washington. Going to sleep early; check. Abstaining from masturbation; check. Getting to work on time; check. Drinking caffeine; check. Eating healthy; will knock that one off in 30min/1 hr. Going to the gym; that will be a check since I will be working late all this week and maybe on Sat too.
And I still haven’t dealt with the cell phone issue yet.