Usual Sunday afternoon in Larkspur doing laundry. Forgot journal at home and don’t want to doomscroll for 30 minutes so here I am.
The usual anger/disapoontment with myself getting stuff done, yet not enough done. Particularly attacking myself over my computer. Tried to upgrade the power supply and graphics card. It seems like I did everything right, but no display when I turned it back on. Will tinker with it when I get back but hoping/praying I can reinstall the old graphics card and get it back to what it was before I started this project. If I can do that, then I can return the graphics card and wait until I am ready to upgrade to an entirely new system. If I can’t get anything to work, do I take it in to see if Geek Squad can fix it? Or pay them to tell me that they can’t and have them sell me a new system. Reason I bought the graphics card was to get ahead of tariffs. Partly using this to avoid dealing with things, but just annoyed with myself over everything about me.
Annoyed with my eye and lack of progress with it getting better. I can see and do things, but the blurriness is annoying.
I’m just annoyed about everything about myself today. Is that better than being depressed, or sad? The thought that “it could be worse” is again annoying. Rather be indifferent or apothetic or numb. I guess I should be thankful, but…you know.
