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Breakfast at Devoted Kiss #SeattleFrontBack – Gig Harbor, USA #frontback – using Frontback app https://frntb.ac/

In no particular order:

• Resolution number one: obviously, will lose twenty pounds. Number two: will find nice sensible partner and not continue to form romantic attachments to alcoholics, workaholics, peeping-toms, megalomaniacs, emotional fuckwits or perverts.
• O.K enough from stealing from other people.  I do need to go to the gym or do yoga or tai chi or find some kind of physical activity besides my commute to work and walking out the house with Colby to get the mail and back.
• Will beat one video game this year besides No Man’s Sky; which hopefully I’m close to getting to the end
• Continue to organize my photos and music collection
• Organize my contact list
• Complete the Goodreads reading challenge.  It says that I only read six, but it did not register the three books I read on the Indonesia trip.  But really, I should be able to read 12 books in a year.
• Get the aquarium/garden set up and working.
• DIY bed headboard from Ikea bookshelf
• Organize garage
• Do yard work and fix stuff around the house
• Go to sleep at a reasonable hour and not stay up on my phone or laptop.
• Take a trip to East Coast to see relative
• Take a trip to California to see friends
• Seriously look at looking for a new/2nd job closer to home
• No new books, only books to finish collections
• Reduce masturbation
• Go somewhere new once a month
• Cut back on going out to eat
• Cut down coffee to 8oz drinks
• Write letters/Send cards out to people
• Reduce buying random gifts to send to people to make yourself feel better
• Learn to love myself
• Take $600 test to find out what I should do with myself
• Continue to look for Amber Wilson
• No new pens
• Cook at home
• Blog more often; less test/quizzes/memes

Think that’s enough broken dreams and promises for the upcoming year.

I think we know how this tale ends. 

#SeattleFrontBack – Port Orchard, USA

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ok, maybe being alone and at home on new years is getting to me.  just want to cry and goto sleep forever. 

I probably should wait until I get off the ferry to post this, but I’m am so glad that this year is over.  Between everything that has gone on in my family life, my work life, and in life in general, I am just exhausted of life.  The new drugs are helping a bit, but still.  Was thinking about doing resolutions, but no energy to try to come up with a list.  Feeling a little down that my New Years consist of going home to eat, maybe play a game for a while, and maybe watching the fireworks on TV.  But it’s more of the “Wish our family celebrated the holidays more, but too tired to do anything about it.” kind of down.  Just glad that this is the last one that I have to deal with for awhile.  Happy New Year; maybe the odd forever be in our favor in 2017.

So I’m not suppose to believe the thoughts in my head because they are lying to me. But on the other side, I’m suppose to lie to myself and believe that I’m happy until I believe the lie. Being pulled in two different ways (actually more than two ways) and not sure I can take much more. And now the only hope I have is getting back on to more medication. Ironicies of life indeed. 

I totally hold this underwear responsible for the bad day that I have had.  I should have not chanced it and changed out of them as soon as I put them on.  But no, I decided to tough it out.  I should have left them in the bathroom when I had to take off almost everything to take a dump with them.  But no, I decided to slog through the day with them on.  Bad decision.  I should burn them and never talk or think about them ever again.  But I think I’m going to give them one more chance at some point.  But for now, they get washed and buried at the bottom of my pile of underwear choices.