Horangee-noon.com http://www.horangee-noon.com/ // ============================================== // Copyright 2004 by CodeLifter.com // Free for all; but please leave in this header. // ============================================== var Quotation=new Array() // do not change this! // Set up the quotations to be shown, below. // To add more quotations, continue with the // pattern, adding to the array. Remember // to increment the Quotation[x] index! Quotation[0] = "Help me, Jesus! Help me, Tom Cruise!"; Quotation[1] = "Yeah, It's the real deal down there."; Quotation[2] = "The blog in my head is so much better."; Quotation[3] = "Roses are red, Some diamonds are blue; Chivalry is dead, But you're still kinda cute"; Quotation[4] = "They say time heals everything, But I’m still waiting."; Quotation[5] = "Roaming inbetween the worlds of sleep and awake."; Quotation[6] = "All the truth, all I need to make of this reality, it's inside, Right here within this shell."; Quotation[7] = "I Didn't Know You, I Didn't Know Me, But I Thought I Knew Everything ."; Quotation[8] = "Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt."; Quotation[9] = "I'm sorry that I hurt you, its something that I must live with every day."; Quotation[10] = "My head is giving me life or death but I can’t choose..."; Quotation[11] = "I’m getting tired of starting again, somewhere new..."; Quotation[12] = "Let the rain come down and wash away my tears."; Quotation[13] = "Because home is where the heart is."; Quotation[14] = "Is it getting better, Or do you feel the same?"; Quotation[15] = "Mistletoe can be deadly if you eat it, but a kiss can be even deadlier if you mean it."; Quotation[16] = "I know, it's time for a change. But when that change comes, will I still feel the same?"; Quotation[17] = "Let the flesh instruct the mind."; Quotation[18] = "The only power that exists is inside ourselves."; Quotation[19] = "I couldn't give you what you wanted and I didn't have enough to give."; Quotation[20] = "Nature awakens the need for love, but it is not capable of satifying it."; Quotation[21] = "Angels are bright; Still, though, the brightest fell."; Quotation[22] = "If one cannot be immortal, one should at least be young."; Quotation[23] = "It's not so much a matter of meeting the right person, as it is meeting them at the right time."; Quotation[24] = "Beyond imagination lies the truth."; Quotation[25] = "Without a past, no being can appreciate what they have and where they may be going"; Quotation[26] = "The ultimate dare is to tell the truth"; Quotation[27] = "Live for the pleasure, the passion, the thrill; and you will live forever."; Quotation[28] = "Hair and teeth; If a man got those two things, he got it all."; Quotation[29] = "I've had it with these mother fucking snakes on this mother fucking plane!"; Quotation[30] = "Sensitive and delicate kinda like a tuberose"; Quotation[31] = "You can tell how full of themselves a person is by how long it takes their myspace to load."; Quotation[32] = "Have you ever wondered if there was more to life, other than being really, really, ridiculously good looking?"; Quotation[33] = "You gotta tame the beast before you let it out of its cage."; Quotation[34] = "When I was in 7th grade, I was... the fat kid in my class."; Quotation[35] = "I feel like I'm taking crazy pills!"; Quotation[36] = "I can Dere-lick my own balls, thank you very much."; Quotation[37] = "Orange Mocha Frappuccino!"; Quotation[38] = "Say it sexy...Like Ricardo Montalban"; Quotation[39] = "Methodically smoking my cigarette; With every breath I breathe out the day; With every delicious sip I drink away the night..."; Quotation[40] = "It's been a long time since I've smelled beautiful..."; Quotation[41] = "There is a way to be good again..."; Quotation[42] = "What we learned here is love tastes bitter when it's gone."; Quotation[43] = "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present."; Quotation[44] = "Listen to your dreams - those are the sounds no one else can hear."; Quotation[45] = "There is a very fine line between love and nausea."; Quotation[46] = "It burns SO good..."; Quotation[47] = "I tied my own shoes once; It is an overrated experience."; Quotation[48] = "Sometimes, you have to roll a hard six."; Quotation[49] = "I believe that it is never a mistake to follow your heart."; Quotation[50] = "I don't wanna waste another day, stuck in the shadow of my mistakes..."; Quotation[51] = "I'm half the man I thought I would be, but you can have what's left of me"; Quotation[52] = "Cause I want you, and I feel you, Crawling underneath my skin"; Quotation[53] = "In endless circles, Running from my self, until you gave me a reason for standing still"; Quotation[54] = "You try to tell yourself the things you try to tell yourself to make yourself forget"; Quotation[55] = "If I lose you, Could you find me? Or would you walk right by me?"; Quotation[56] = "...living in hell like it's some kind of heaven."; Quotation[57] = "All my sins, I said I would pay for them if I could come back to you."; Quotation[58] = "To listen requires a voice. For what needs to be known, requires us to ask."; Quotation[59] = "I don't need no instructions to know how to ROCK"; Quotation[60] = "I have the sense to recognize that I don't know how to let you go..."; // ====================================== // Do not change anything below this line // ====================================== var Q = Quotation.length; var whichQuotation=Math.round(Math.random()*(Q-1)); function showQuotation(){document.write(Quotation[whichQuotation]);} showQuotation(); en-US Copyright 2010 Sun, 14 Feb 2010 22:47:16 -0800 http://www.sixapart.com/movabletype/ http://www.rssboard.org/rss-specification 2010 Tiger Horoscope Energy to Make Big Gains

Get ready for a passionate year, Tiger! The influence of Metal will allow you to be especially focused and full of steely resolve. Tigers will not take setbacks lying down. Socially, you will be popular and project an air of captivating charm that attracts recognition. This makes it an especially strong year to pursue financial or career interests. Simple perseverance will give you an edge on your competition. Even in the face of difficulty, Tigers always land on their feet. Your natural daring and optimism combines with extra determination. Powerful energy needs to be channeled in constructive directions. Find causes you believe in. Otherwise, you could create conflicts with your nearest and dearest

]]> http://www.horangee-noon.com/2010/02/2010_tiger_horoscope.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2010/02/2010_tiger_horoscope.html Sun, 14 Feb 2010 22:47:16 -0800 My Top 10 according to Last.FM
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]]> http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/12/my_top_10_according_to_lastfm_1.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/12/my_top_10_according_to_lastfm_1.html Tue, 29 Dec 2009 00:38:19 -0800 Part of a survey that I took in 2003 The weird/sad thing is how many of the answers are the same today. 
]]> http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/12/part_of_a_survey_that_i_took_i.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/12/part_of_a_survey_that_i_took_i.html Memes Mon, 28 Dec 2009 16:44:13 -0800 <![CDATA[What a blockhead I am…]]> If I can’t call someone or even text them, then I deserve to be holed up in my room alone.

If I can’t call or write a letter to someone I called a friend, then I deserve to be friendless.

Instead, I choose to be indecisive, afraid, and scarred of my own shadow.

What if I am not depressed, but choose to be depressed.

What if I am not a fool, but choose to be a fool.

]]> http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/12/what_a_blockhead_i_am.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/12/what_a_blockhead_i_am.html Sat, 05 Dec 2009 22:36:07 -0800 <![CDATA[From “The Everything Birthday Personology Book”]]> April 24

You’re on a continual quest for peace and self-improvement.  There is no room in your life for any type of discord, especially spiritual. You believe that there’s a pattern to things, an order, and once you understand that, harmony develops naturally.  This outlook, combined with the individualistic, perfectionist birth number of 1, motivates you to try to constantly refine your personal abilities and release old, outmoded behaviors.

You’re very talented and have financial aptitude.  Careers that focus on money (banking, financial advisor, etc.) suit you very well.  The only problem is that you suffer from underlying indecisiveness that comes from lingering teenage angst.  By the age of about thirty-five this should dwindle, and you’ll feel comfortable enough in your skin to move forward boldly.

Lovers need to be reminded to be gentle.  You love very easily and deeply, often collapsing into a relationship and getting lost there.  Nonetheless, with a well-balanced partner you are very inventive and diligent about relationship maintenance.

Gift idea: a calculator or nice checkbook cover.

]]> http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/12/from_the_everything_birthday_p_1.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/12/from_the_everything_birthday_p_1.html Horoscope Sat, 05 Dec 2009 19:51:06 -0800 Mulling the future Here at barnes & nobles killing time while I wait for my car to get fixed ( tires). Did not figure buying tires when I was planning this trip to WA to see the folks. Maybe it would have been cheaper to fly up instead of driving. Too late now to do anything about it except to wonder if I should have got a credit card to help pay for things like this I think I remember a time where I would have been happy to stay in a bookstore for hours, just reading away. Now, it just looks like a bunch of dead trees to my eyes. Sometimes I feel like I can only see death and decay through my eyes, never the life and the love of the world. This would have been easier to type of I had a new laptop. Just saying. Like I can really afford one. I think that I would be happier with a pet cat or dog yawn. Three more hours to kill. Wish that I could go home and come back later. A nap would be nice right about now. http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/11/mulling_the_future.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/11/mulling_the_future.html iPhone Sat, 21 Nov 2009 10:31:27 -0800 Pre Halloween sickness Just watched the House episode when he got sent to a psychiatric facility which makes me wonder just how close I am to being sent to a facility.  More than that, it made me wonder about my inability to let go.  To let go of the pain that I have.  To let go of the feuds that I hold on to.  To let go of the guilt that I carry.   All of it is a morass that I wallow in.  And while my therapy is helping me to deal with it, none of it helps me to escape it.  Isn’t there a theory that in order to escape quicksand, you have to relax and let it take over you so you can float out of it….hmmm, that doesn’t sound right.

Resisting the urge to go out and gorge my pain away with some fast food, like I’ve been doing for the last couple of days, weeks, months for a long time it seems.  Still won’t loose any real weight until I get to the gym again.  But baby steps., first I need to starve myself and start eating better and less.  And fight off this cold/flu before it even happens.

Still I’m hurt that…didn’t come over like she said and hurt that she didn’t text or anything.  Guess that is sign enough though.  Maybe it’s the skepticism and wariness that comes with being a Capricorn.  I would have been worthy of your trust, I think, if you would but give it to me.

Anyway, it is past my sleep time, which is sad for a Friday night.  Maybe I’ll stay up and watch a movie or something.  Still haven’t watched In Burges yet?  Or maybe I should just sleep, my body is still aching like I have a cold/flu or something.

]]> http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/10/pre_halloween_sickness.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/10/pre_halloween_sickness.html Fri, 30 Oct 2009 22:26:38 -0800 Ghosts of the past and forgiveness Stopped in Vacaville on a tip that the Denny’s there had been knocked down and demolished for what looks like a chicken shop.  The loss of the Denny’s made me take a drive through Vacaville to visit the places of my past.  In previous trips, there has always been the ghost of those memories to greet me at these places.  But this time, there were no such ghosts.  Had the passage of time finally release these spiritual being.  Or had the city changed so much that the ghost were made irrelevant.  I think the only trips to Vacaville that I will take will be the ones when I look at my yearbook.  If that….

The one thing that therapy is not  helping me with is the question of forgiveness.  To ask others for forgiveness is a daunting task, but one that I am up for.  While I am comfortable forgiving myself for using Facebook and neglecting my journal, there are other things that I have yet to forgive myself for.  For betraying them and their trust…no for abandoning them and pushing away their offers of friendship and help.  That is what I cannot forgive myself for.  That is what therapy can’t seem to find for me.  The forgiveness is the answer that I seek.  This lack of forgiveness is what keeps me stagnant and depressed, I think.

Is the answer God?  I wish it was, but God is like a person on a boat while you are drowning.  He is willing to save you as long as you agree to his conditions before you board.  Conditional forgiveness is not what I am looking for…I don’t think.

]]> http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/10/ghosts_of_the_past_and_forgive.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/10/ghosts_of_the_past_and_forgive.html Mon, 19 Oct 2009 21:41:12 -0800 Being a good boy Being a good boy and doing laundry instead of going to the movies. Being a bad boy by stealing bandwidth from a router. Not really my fault that they didn't change their password. Wishing that I could talk to....but she's was out of town today and not sure if she would be up to going out after driving from Sacramento. Actually, I'm being a wuss and not texting her for some reason. I should...maybe not http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/10/being_a_good_boy.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/10/being_a_good_boy.html iPhone Thu, 15 Oct 2009 20:21:29 -0800 12 couples and one single guy guess the single guy http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/09/12_couples_and_one_single.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/09/12_couples_and_one_single.html Sat, 05 Sep 2009 20:53:20 -0800 In the theather way too early. The other film is still finishing and the theather hasn't been clean yet. What a loser I am. Anyway going to go see gamer with gerard butler. The point of getting out of the house is to help allieve my depression, but what is the point when going out makes me just as depressed. Hopefully I won't be the only person in the theather. Done that before and that almost push me to suicide. http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/09/in_the_theather_way_too.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/09/in_the_theather_way_too.html iPhone Sat, 05 Sep 2009 20:29:39 -0800 What am I doing At the mall again waiting for a movie to start wondering what I am doing here. I really do hate going to the movies alone. Hopefully the movie will be good http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/09/what_am_i_doing.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/09/what_am_i_doing.html iPhone Sat, 05 Sep 2009 20:13:43 -0800 Why I like my job I get to be a dirty old man and oggle young freshmen girls. There are more reasons why I like my job, I just can't seem to think of them as these girls with their short shorts and their low cut tops walk by me. http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/08/why_i_like_my_job.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/08/why_i_like_my_job.html iPhone Mon, 24 Aug 2009 17:02:33 -0800 Mood for today Is again a 6.  Just a bit over feeling numb.  More sore and tired from work today more than anything else.  Trying to stay awake a bit longer so that I can sleep through the night.  Also hoping in the off chance that you will call me for whatever reason you need to call me.  But I know that’s not going to happen.

Was trying to watch Kill Bill on TV, but couldn’t concentrate enough to really pay attention to it.  The mouse is charging right now, so no World of Warcraft.  I could clean my room.  I should clean my room.  Think that I am going to try to read for awhile.

What a boring entry

]]> http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/08/mood_for_today.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/08/mood_for_today.html Wed, 19 Aug 2009 22:26:43 -0800 Tracking my feelings I do need some way of tracking my mood.  Right now, on a scale of 1-10, I’m at a 6.  Just a bit over neutral feeling.

]]> http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/08/tracking_my_feelings.html http://www.horangee-noon.com/2009/08/tracking_my_feelings.html Mon, 17 Aug 2009 23:36:30 -0800