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One technique is to write down all of the things you accomplished before you go to sleep, so you don’t obsess over them while trying to go to sleep.

• Took a shower
• Left the house and went out for breakfast
• Walked a mile+ around downtown San Rafael
• Found commercial TV and wall mount for work
• Bought socks
• Didn’t go out to eat
• Didn’t have cereal dessert
• Cleaned dinning table
• Put clean dishes away
• Took out the trash
• Found the leak under the sink

So now I only have to obsess over.

• Clean clothes in room still not put away
• Dirty laundry in car that I didn’t do today
• Apartment that still hasn’t been clean
• All the money I spent today on various website with questionable purchases I may or may not need
• Need to find a new car
• Being alone
• Going back to work tomorrow and all that awaits me
• My depression
• My silent obsession over people that aren’t interested in me.
• Getting old
• My underfunded retirement
• The Novato Leadership Program video that I still need to make
• My health

…and whatever else my mind decides to focus on, in the past or made-up future, to keep me awake.

Even waking up early and eating breakfast I’m still end up running late 😵‍💫

Will I be able to see this on livejournal too?

what about images?

Sometimes (maybe a lot of times) it’s just easier to stay in bed and starve than to go out to get breakfast and eat alone.

Breakfast at Canyon Cafe in American Canyon today. Trying to reset and get out the house on Sunday’s. I should go grocery shopping after, but we’ll see. Kinda want to goto Vacaville, but kinda don’t either; don’t want to deal with 95° heat.

What other thoughts can I spill while waiting for my food? Two weeks until shutdown and I still haven’t reserved anywhere to go. Another week rotting away at home? Possible. Thoughts again about getting a cat; still not confident in my ability to take care of another living creature. The succulents are barely alive.

Have enough energy to take the car to the car wash to get cleaned. Had to stop off the side of the road to dump everything in the seats into the trunk. Love how we have to clean things before we let strangers do it for us. Human nature is weird. I should go across the street and start looking at cars since the clock is ticking on the lease on the Civic. Definitely going to buy this time but can i afford new or will I have to settle for used. Maybe try for a Hyundai or Kia again. I don’t know, all the cars seem boring.

Hmmm. I should stay out of the house but I feel my energy draining. If I go home, can I keep the momentum and clean the apartment. Or will I succumb to the safety and comfort of the couch and computer.