At the counter at Shari’s waiting for my Thanksgiving steak dinner. Watching the chaos behind the counter is like watching Rush at the bookstore from a students point of view. My nearsightedness is really kicking in the last few days. I’m going to have to cave and get reading glasses. Sigh…should have ate more carrots I suppose. Too lazy to get my journal and pen out the car. Should I bother getting them a plate to eat, just in case? Who knows? Is this a taste of things to come in my future? I really shouldn’t future look and just try to stay in the present. But the present is so depressing and blurry. Will I be able to survive into the new year and get drugs. Will those drugs be able to

Quietness

Fleeing the moaning and shuffling of Mom and her pain for the chaotic noise of the mall. Downing a cappuccino blast and a raspberry green tea lemonade and still not satisfied. Pondering a drive in the backroads but question the roads on this surprisingly snowy day. Should make a fountain pen day post at some point. But just want to find a warm quiet place to cuddle, drink hot amaretto chocolate, watch the snow fall, and snooze.

Not feeling it.

Move in weekend at UW. What is this; my 18th move in weekend working at a college bookstore. Usually I’m a little more happy due to the excitement of the students moving in an coming back for the school year. However this year, I am not feeling it. Just drained, tired, and blah. Maybe cause of the slight cold I’m getting over. Maybe the lack of sleep due to my diabetes trips to the restroom at night. Maybe the lack of depression medication. Or maybe I’m just done with college bookstores in general and it’s time for me to move on.

Rare blog

New journal is in bag and we are having some issues, so a rare blog on the website.

Grey day in Seattle is actually helping my mood somewhat. It’s better than the smoky haze of the last few days as the ash from The Rockies floating in the air. Even with the rain, it’s somewhat humid and draining, but not as much. Seems like it will be a quiet day today at least, which will give me time to assess the damage from the high schoolers and get ready for the college kids. With a football game tomorrow, we’ll see how busy it gets downstairs.

Diabetes still working its magic on me, down to 237, peeing every hour, and still dehydrated. Have to survive until the end of the month for doctor appointment and prescription. Hope I don’t gain back the weight once I’m back on medication. Still I don’t feel/look any different with the 15 pound weight loss. Maybe if I get into the 220’s I’ll see something.

Nothing to exciting to talk about. Mainly due to lack of sleep. Although it’s getting better, still not enough with the getting up to pee…Something is in the air, no sure what though. Just keep my ears and eyes open, I guess

Rare blog

New journal is in bag and we are having some issues, so a rare blog on the website.

Grey day in Seattle is actually helping my mood somewhat. It’s better than the smoky haze of the last few days as the ash from The Rockies floating in the air. Even with the rain, it’s somewhat humid and draining, but not as much. Seems like it will be a quiet day today at least, which will give me time to assess the damage from the high schoolers and get ready for the college kids. With a football game tomorrow, we’ll see how busy it gets downstairs.

Diabetes still working its magic on me, down to 237, peeing every hour, and still dehydrated. Have to survive until the end of the month for doctor appointment and prescription. Hope I don’t gain back the weight once I’m back on medication. Still I don’t feel/look any different with the 15 pound weight loss. Maybe if I get into the 220’s I’ll see something.

Nothing to exciting to talk about. Mainly due to lack of sleep. Although it’s getting better, still not enough with the getting up to pee…Something is in the air, no sure what though. Just keep my ears and eyes open, I guess