I feel the coldness of my thoughts start to take over my body. Even the thoughts that should feel me with happiness and warmth are laced with an icy chill that I cannot control. As the Hawaiian melodies play in the the background by the commuters to my left, it just heightens the discord in my mind instead of letting it imagingme laying on a sunny beach. I look out and see the sun breaking through the clouds and shining down on my home of Port Orchard as the ferry continues to head to the gloom and overcast that covers Seattle. The gloom and overcast that does nothing to help the coldness in my body and the despair in my thoughts.