According to an article that I read on CNN.com’s site anyway.
Was I happier when I was blogging more, way back when on LiveJournal?
I def. blogged about the bad/sad things in my life. But was I happier after I did that?
Has opposed to keeping it all inside of me like I am doing now.
So much of my history that I am just letting float away, because I am too scared to talk about it.
Even to a journal that no one looks at.
**checks web page stats**
Yep, no one is looking.
Well, tonight’s depression is mainly a dread that I am going to loose my job because of comments that I don’t remember saying to another employee along with a side dish of hate/paranoia in regards to the roommates and the usual side dishes of not having enough money, never finding someone to love me for me, and being fat as I munch on McDonalds and 7-11.
I had a vision/daydream that I was blowing up balloons and one popped in front of my eyes and I lost my vision. Along with my loss of hearing, I wanted someone to kill me, but they wouldn’t. Don’t remember if I did it myself or not.
**sigh** Of course, this is the kind of talk that all women are looking for in a man.
Really, I should just focus on work. If I focus on work, then all the other stuff will just go away.