November 2007 Archives

Recovering from my drive back from Washington. 

Oregon is much nicer when it's not raining and there is sun light. 

Made the trip in 15 hours. Got home @ 1am in the morning.  Started the day @ 9am.

Did get home early enough to watch the repeat of Battlestar Galattica: Razor.  Good Stuff!  Can believe that I have to wait until March for Season 4 to begin.

Redding is a weird town, layout-wise

There is a Sonic Drive-in in Redding and Woodland.  Still too far away for me to drive too on a regular basis.  But if I am in Davis or Sacramento...

Looking at the presents I bought and wish that I would have stuck with gift cards instead.  Not that the gifts aren't great gifts, but for the few people that are left, I have to hunt for that perfect gift within the budget.  And that means that I have to goto the mall.

I want soup, but I have to goto the mall

I have to exchange one of my presents, but that means going to the mall

**sigh** I am going to have to goto the mall

It's 4am the day after Thanksgiving @ I am sitting in my brother's car waiting for Old Navy to open so that we can get a free MP3 player with our purchase. We waited out in the cold with at least 1000-2000 people at midnight to shop at the mall. I was able to get most of my xmas shopping done, but still. They (mall management) made it seem like it was new years or something, but let's face it, this is just sickening capitalism at it's worse. I can promise one thing; I am never doing this again

* I am thankful for the health of my parents and my brother * I am thankful for the fact that I am doing alright. I have my job, my car, my health. * I am thankful for the fact that my friend Mew is back in my life. It has been a long time, but I am ready to rebuild the bridges of friendship that I let go of. I feel like that I should thankful for more, but I can't think of anything. Does that make me a bad person?

On the ferry on my way to Bellingham via Seattle. Unlike Portland, a city that I am somewhat afraid of, I could learn to live in the Seattle/Tacoma area. I could get used to taking the ferry into town for work , drinking copious amounts of coffee, and wearing flannel shirts. Come to think of it, I don't think that I've seen anyone with flannel on. Anyway, no signs of seasickness, so I think that I will stay out here on the deck awhile.

the other thing that has happened to me is that I have somehow sprained my left arm. I don't know what I did, but it has been bothering me since Monday. Hoping it will go away by tomorow; if not, maybe I can stop by a hospital on the way home and have it checked out. I wonder if it will cost more since it is an out of state hospital? For some reason I have it in my mind that it could either be diabeties, menegitis, or that flesh eating disease. Don't know how they all popped in my head.

So started my vacation on Sunday by leaving the fog of the city at 11am.  First stop was Vacaville, of course.  I had to visit all of my ghosts from my pass.  The plan was to take pictures of places of my childhood teenagehood since I have none.  And I started to take pictures of some of the places when I started to realize that they really didn't have the meaning that I thought that they would or have.  I think that I will go back and finish taking the pictures if I drive back into Vacaville during the day, but it's not that important anymore.

Anyway the drive through California to the Oregon border was eventful in the fact that I didn't get a ticket this time (every time before that I have driven to Oregon I have received a speeding ticket.).  It seemed like it was a quicker drive thru the Shasta's; maybe because I have a car that actually has some power compared to the Focus or the Metro.  Anyway, made it to Ashland/Medford in good time; took a break and call the parents, then headed thru Oregon.

Does it just rain and rain in Oregon?  I swear that's all it does.  Anyway, the plan was to drive all the way to Washington, has my GPS in my car said that I could make it by 11pm.  I guess my car didn't take into consideration the weather and the fact that I would have to drive 120+ mph to make it to my parents in that time.  After I figured that out, the plan was to get to Portland so that I could stay at this hotel that I had heard about.  But the hard rain and all of the 18-wheelers on the highway got the best of my nerves and I had to pull over in Salem for the night.  Stayed in a decent hotel, and while it didn't have a hot tub room for me to soak in, the room was way better than the room I stayed in at the Disneyland hotel.  Free wi-fi in the room sealed the deal, but I fell asleep even before I could get a chance to use it.

Monday, I headed out from Salem to Washington.  Portland is an interesting city, that I would like to visit and explore more if I have time on my way back.  They have a cable car that I want to ride.  However, I don't think that I could stay in a city that has so many rusted bridges in it.  I know that I would be on one of them when an earthquake hit.  Otherwise, uneventful drive to Port Orchard and my parent's house.  The parents have a new child in the name of the new dog, Elvis.  Elvis is cute in his own way, a little more active than Charlie, the other dog in the house.  Dad FINALLY got DSL in the house.  Now I just need to get him a wi-fi adapter so I can connect with my laptop.  Mom has learned to use the internet and shops on HSN and QVC websites now.  All I have been doing is eating, watching TV, and sleeping.  Haven't picked up any of the work that I brought nor have I checked my work  email.  Going to resist doing anything for work on this vacation.  Tomorrow, I kinda want to drive up to Bellingham to goto Western WA University where Amber started to get her a sweatshirt or something for Christmas.  It is a long drive though and there will be traffic because of the holidays.  I'm still mulling it over, but I'm thinking that I will do it.  If nothing else, I can crash at Eric's tomorrow night and then drive back here with him and Maria for Thanksgiving.  Dad hasn't said anything about a turkey, so I'm hoping that we will have a turkey free Thanksgiving and just make it all Korean.  We'll see.

Can't sleep with the roommates talking and laughing outside.  Luckily, this is a weekend night so I don't really care too much.  However, they have done this on week nights before and I have been at the point of almost killing them before they finally went to sleep

 

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A little disappointed

I should be getting ready for my trip to Washington state, but my room is still messy, I haven't packed and I didn't get chains for my car.

The roommate are conversing outside.  **sigh** No matter what I do, I will never have a bond like they have.  They have been roommates for 5-6 years after all.  It's a little lonesome, but it is the prison that I built for myself, after all.  like the fortune teller said, the door is open, all I have to do is to walk out the cage.  And yet, I just sit here, in the prison of my mind.  I am such a good warden to myself.  I've unlocked a few of my self-inflicted chains, but there are so many more that I need to unlock.

The weather report looks good; no sign of snow on the roads.  I probably should have gotten an oil change and a check-up.  However, tech. I'm still 3000 miles away from the first one, so maybe I can get away with it.  Will def. have to get one after I get back.

It will be good to be with the family again, to recharge my heart and soul.  I have this binder of work that I am/was planning on bringing up with me.  But I think that I want to leave it behind.  After the trip to SoCal and the upcoming work parties that I'm starting to dread, I think that I want a week of just not thinking about work.

Today I was standing over a chasm, looking down into the depths, when someone on the other side threw a rope over to me.  I looked at it, and instead of letting it slide into the chasm like I usually do, I gathered my courage and picked up the rope.  I looked to the other side and saw my friend, Mew.  It has been so long and it was a much needed call for the both of us.

Bridges burnt can be rebuilt.

Thank you Mew, thank you for believing in me; for not giving up on me. 

 

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Yeah, I suck at science...

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Don't know how this mood came over me; probably with the fog that rolled in this afternoon.

I really want some alcohol, but I've also had enough of alcohol and drunk people for awhile.  The last thing I need is to try and babysit my drunk self.  So I am eating and fatting myself up again.  I'm already halfway up to my old top weight.  So much for the diet.

Why do I have this feeling that you are sad and need a hug?  Or is it just me that is sad and wants a hug from you?

taking it back old school Live Journal Style....

 

"What's Left Of Me"

Watch my life,
Pass me by,
In the rear view mirror
Pictures frozen in time
Are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes
Yeah...

[Chorus]
Cause I want you,
And I feel you,
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger,
Like a burning,
To find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken,
And I'm faded,
I'm half the man I thought I would be:
But you can have what's left of me

I've been dying inside,
Little by little,
No where to go,
But going out of my mind
In endless circles,
Running from my self until,
You gave me a reason for standing still

[Chorus]

It's falling faster,
Barely breathing,
Give me something,
To believe in
Tell me: It's not all in my head

Take what's left
Of this man
Make me whole
Once again

[Chorus]

I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind
Out of my mind
I'm just running in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?
Just running in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?

Surprised that the ears fit my big head...

So I am somewhat recovered from my week long trip.  I have a week to fully recover before going on another trip to see my parents.  Yay for travel!

Anyway, spending the day unpacking, cleaning up, and what not.  While cleaning up my computer desktop (remember, a clean desktop is a happy computer) I came across these pictures that I created on a web site.

The first three are racial pictures, the last three are famous artists pictures.  I think that I like East Asian Joe (#2) the best out of the race ones.  Has for the artists ones, the el Greco one looks like how I would turn out if I was living on the streets or something.  I have to see if I can find the link to the site where I did this at.

the worst trip that I have taken

ok maybe not, but for coming out of the happiest place on earth, I am in a pretty fowl mood. I am never going on a business trip unless it is by myself. I am so conflicted right now. actually, all I want to do is to go home and crawl into bed and hide for the rest of the weekend.

So I am down in SoCal for a bookstore convention for the week staying at the Disneyland hotel. So far, my dreams have not come true. I guess I was expecting the room to be all disney'd out with Mickey Mouse everywhere. Not so. Small room, small beds, bad TV reception. The worse is that view to our room was described has having a park view. That "park" view turned out to be a parking lot view :-p Otherwise it has been low key so far. Took a stroll down Downtown Disney. It was nice, but it sucks not having money. *sigh* The story of my life. One thing that Disney does know how to do is to make drinks. EXCELLENT DRINKS!!! Unfortunately, drinks led to drunken coworker. Mental note, don't argue about "you are". Had to work off some steam at the gym, which was good. Just wish that I had some trunks to enjoy the hot tubs. So right now I am on a bus to tour other bookstores, which I am excited about. Also hope to do some networking here. If I am going to be in the bookstore business, I guess it would help to know some people.

not impressed. more tomorrow

waiting here at officemax to get a filing cabinet. might also pick up another goodie for myself too