So I went to the Golden Gate Faire today. I expected it to be somewhat small. I haven’t been to any faires in a while, but unless Northern Faire finally went bankrupt, I expected most guilds/shops/people to be getting ready for that. Well, I was wrong. The faire was at Speedway Meadow and it was pretty sizeable. So I went in and walked around. Got some funnel cake with apples, and a fairy statue for Amber’s birthday. Almost bought an outfit for myself.
I went to the fortune teller’s booth to get my cards read. I told myself that I wouldn’t think about Suzanne, but of course it was the only thing on my mind as I cut the deck
King of Swords/Knight of Coins/The Devil/Nine of Coins/Ten of Cups/Ace of Wands
According to my reader, I should be ready for something new to appear in my life. I was at a point in my life that I was ready to move on and start anew. New beginnings and all of that.
So I’m on my way to leave the faire and I see her.
And all I could do was stare at her.
She is still fucking beautiful.
And here I am now home. my mind and heart all turned upside down.
The cards told me to walk away.
Everyone tells me to let it go and walk away.
But I just can’t. My heart won’t let me.