But I do need a place to put my exercise and diet info if I am going to keep track of my progress. Other than that, I have been in the same rut that I been in forever. Work, more work, come home and surf the internet, zone out to TV, occasionally exercise, occasional World of Warcraft, occasional thoughts of killing myself. Actually, I worried that I am going to be fired from my job. I don’t feel like I am doing a good job, and it doesn’t help that I am alienating myself from my employees. I do wish that I had the courage to put myself out of this misery.
I finally realized why I stop talking to my old friends and just let all of those relationships die. I don’t have the strength to maintain them. I barely have the strength to maintain my relationships with my co-workers. Sometimes, I think it would be nice to just get my old job back at the Warehouse, where I would have even less relationships to maintain. The funny thing is that I did this job test which is suppose to find the best jobs you are suited for and being a forest tower ranger, the guy who is out all alone in a tower in the forest that keeps a lookout for forest fires and stuff.
I wonder if it is too late to change jobs.
This is all bullshit anyway, since I am drunk again. How many calories does beer have? And should I be drinking after working out. And by workout I mean 30 minutes on the elliptical machine. Heaven forbid if I lift a dumbbell, get on a weight machine, or do a sit-up. I wonder if I can lose weight just by doing the elliptical machine?
I think I am starting to feel sick. I sure the nightly throwing up I do is not good for me. Ahh the price of being a lonely drunk.