**Blows off the dust…**

Well, I am desperate for a place to blog, so I am back here until further notice.  My main blog is in disarray since I switched from Moveable Type to WordPress in a one of the many moments of drunkenness that I have had.  While WP was easy to install, I am not happy with the lack of options that I have to customize.  Ok, the thing is that I can’t put in the random quote generator that I have (apparently, can’t use JavaScript.)  That and I’ve just been lazy about the whole blog thing.

But I do need a place to put my exercise and diet info if I am going to keep track of my progress.  Other than that, I have been in the same rut that I been in forever.  Work, more work, come home and surf the internet, zone out to TV, occasionally exercise, occasional World of Warcraft, occasional thoughts of killing myself.  Actually, I worried that I am going to be fired from my job.  I don’t feel like I am doing a good job, and it doesn’t help that I am alienating myself from my employees.  I do wish that I had the courage to put myself out of this misery.

I finally realized why I stop talking to my old friends and just let all of those relationships die.  I don’t have the strength to maintain them.  I barely have the strength to maintain my relationships with my co-workers.  Sometimes, I think it would be nice to just get my old job back at the Warehouse, where I would have even less relationships to maintain.  The funny thing is that I did this job test which is suppose to find the best jobs you are suited for and being a forest tower ranger, the guy who is out all alone in a tower in the forest that keeps a lookout for forest fires and stuff.

I wonder if it is too late to change jobs.

This is all bullshit anyway, since I am drunk again.  How many calories does beer have?  And should I be drinking after working out.  And by workout I mean 30 minutes on the elliptical machine.  Heaven forbid if I lift a dumbbell, get on a weight machine, or do a sit-up.  I wonder if I can lose weight just by doing the elliptical machine? 

I think I am starting to feel sick.  I sure the nightly throwing up I do is not good for me.  Ahh the price of being a lonely drunk.