Studying myself…

I should commision a study on myself; why do I push away the people that care for me? Why do I want to injure myself?
I still have two weeks, but I think that I am going to be living in my car starting next month. I should have spent the night calling and email people about rooms for rent. I didn’t. I probably should be concerned, but I’m not.
A coworker passed away at work today. I still have enough of my humanity to feel somewhat sad and to cry about it.