running through my head…

After spending a few weeks worried about someone you haven’t seen, when you finally find out that they are alive and O.K., you’d think that you could sleep easier. In fact the opposite is true, that I can’t get to sleep. Thoughts and memories keep me awake until the sun is about to rise. They are happy thoughts that make me feel good and lighter, something that I haven’t felt in a long time.
It’s sad in a way that that’s all i have, thoughts and memories with no way of making any new ones with them. But for the moment, I’m just going to continue to float on the happy thoughts and memories that are here now.