waste of time…

I am hating my theropy, just for public record. This has been the biggest waste of time and money. Now I know why Tony Soprano gets so pissed of at Dr. Melfi(sp?).
I really was in a muderous rage this morning. I wanted just to lash out and break stuff in her office. Such a waste…it is only a matter of time now before I kill myself. I swear, I am so ready just to end it. What’s the point of theropy if it doesn’t help. If I just around and around in circles. God, why can’t she just drug me up or electricute me and cure me? Or just knock some sense into me, or just slap the depression right out of me?